Dearest God,

September ends in a few days! How time really flies so fast. But first, I want to thank you. Thank you for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me and my family each and every day. I'm sorry for the times I've done wrong to others that might offend you. Please help me to be a good child of yours everyday. God, I know many are praying for you every seconds and even though I don't write my prayer or utter it in words you already know what's my desires. God, I'm praying that my visa be granted today. May I receive it before this week ends. God, you know how much I wanted it! It's hard to be away with my family but I'm looking forward to give them the best life that they deserve especially my parents. I have hope and I have faith that you will grant it to me. Thank you in advance my dearest Lord! :)

#onlyinthephilippines

Despite of the not-so-good news that we heard on the radio and seen on the television everyday, I think we deserve to laugh once in a while and forget those problems.

One fine afternoon out of boredom again [dapat lagi akong bored para may naiisip akong isulat], I typed #onlyinthephilippines on my twitter search and I found these humorous and very true infos that are really only in the Philippines and I wanna share it with you guys! :)

• where family and faith are the center of lives, making us one of the most hospitable people in the world. :) #onlyinthephilippines
• where it's summer all year round and Christmas comes 3 months earlier than the restt of the world. #onlyinthephilippines
• where people would find the smallest things to be happy about even in the saddest situations. :) #onlyinthephilippines
• home of the most hardworking people around the globe. #onlyinthephilippines #OFW
• where everyone is born an artist. from karaoke to videoke. walang sinabi ang American Idol #onlyinthephilippines
• jeeps are #onlyinthephilippines be proud of the 'paki-abot please!'
• kahit walang pera kapag fiesta, mangungutang para may panghanda, magcelebrate and magpasalamat #onlyinthephilippines
• ikaw na ang inutangan, ikaw pa ang mahihiyang maningil #onlyinthephilippines
• home of luksong baka, patintero, piko and other unique sports that give us our character #onlyinthephilippines
• we're very happy people. doesn't matter kung may bagyo, lindol o baha #onlyinthephilippines
• the home of the Pound for Pound King, Most talented kids, Land of the Mother of democracy #onlyinthephilippines
• the home of adobo, sinigang and kare-kare, some of the most delicious dishes in the world. #onlyinthephilippines
• #onlyinthephilippines where cars are important than pedestrians
• #onlyinthephilippines simbang gabi and no one observes lenten season better than pinoys!
• #onlyinthephilippines where children use "po" and "opo" as signs of respect to the others.

Be proud to be Pinoy! I'm proud to be one! :)

#HelpDOT

My "Bakit" List

This has nothing to do with the movie "The Bucket List". Just because I'm bored and I'm thinking of a topic to kill boredom, this "Bakit" List came up my mind. Kung yung Bucket list ay listahan ng mga bagay na gusto mong gawin bago ka mamatay [i've done this before! i've listed 100 things there!], itong Bakit list ko ay listahan ng mga samu't saring tanong ko na resulta lang ng makulit kong pag-iisip! Mga tanong na hindi ko matanong. Mga tanong na ewan ko ba kung tanong nga ba. Mga tanong na hindi ko alam kung may matinong kasagutan. Mga tanong na wala lang masabi lang na nagtanong ako. :P

Oh heto na!

- Bakit madalas kapag may hinahanap tayo, hindi natin mahanap-hanap pero pag hindi naman natin hinahanap biglang sisipot?
- Bakit kapag sumagot tayo ng telephone, "Hello" lagi sagot natin?
- Bakit daw kapag hindi ka swerte sa pag-ibig swerte ka raw sa pera? Meron namang swerte sa dalawa meron din namang hindi swerte sa dalawa? Sino ba tong nagsasabi-sabi ng ganyan?
- Bakit may mga taong ang lakas mang-asar pero kapag sila ang inasar mo ang bilis nila mapikon? Pikon Talo!
- Bakit ba yung karamihan sa mga mahihirap lahat na lang ng problema nila sinisi sa gobyerno. Hindi naman ang gobyerno ang nanganak ng sandosena di ba?
- Bakit yung mga pulubi ngayong bigyan mo ng pagkain ayaw tanggapin? Choosy na? Para silang jeep, may minimun fare! Kaloka!
-Bakit kapag gwapo ang may crush sa iyo umiikot ang mundo mo sa saya, pero kapag pangit ang may crush sa iyo, umiikot ang tiyan mo sa kaba?
- Bakit mahirap matulog pag gutom?
- Bakit masarap matulog pag umuulan?
- Bakit may mga panahon na gusto mong matulog, pero hindi ka maantok. Meron naman antok na antok ka pero di ka makatulog? Labo!
- Bakit may mga taong allergy sa masasarap na pagkain, pinaparusahan ba sila ni God?
- Bakit kapag inutangan tayo, parang tayo pa minsan ang nahihiyang maningil sa kanila?
- Bakit pag di kagandahan o kagwapuhan ang tao na pinapadescribe sayo, ang sagot mo "Mabait sya"?
- Bakit ung 7eleven eh 24/7 open? Wala lang, trip ko lang tanungin!
- Bakit ang hirap maging babae kapag torpe yung lalake?
- Bakit may mga taong tatanungin ka pa kung anong ginagawa mo eh kita na naman nila kung ano ginagawa mo?
- Bakit dito sa Pinas madalas pag nag-announce ang PAG-ASA ng Typhoon Signals and Classes Suspensions, sya namang labas ni Haring Araw? Nang-aasar lang!
- Bakit may mga lalaking gusto ng maraming asawa, isa pa nga lang mahirap na eh? Dagdagan pa?
- Bakit Bahaghari ang tagalog ng Rainbow? Parang ang baho!
- Bakit nung bata tayo, tinuturuan tayo maglakad. Ngayong lumaki na tayo, pahirapan naman magpaalam kapag may lakad?
- Bakit nung bata tayo, pinapatulog tayo sa tanghali. Ngayong matanda na tayo, nasasabihan tayong tamad pag natulog tayo ng tanghali?
- Bakit kapag naghihintay ka ng elevator parating may pindot ng pindot ng button? Kahit ilang pindot mo hindi bibilis ang pagdating ng elevator!
- Bakit ba yung mga sumasakay sa MRT ayaw pumasok sa loob, lahat gusto sa may pintuan! Eh kung gawin na lang kayang isang mahabang pintuan yung tren ng di kayo magsiksikan sa pinto!
- Bakit maraming nakasabit ngayon sa mga bags na hand sanitizer? di naman nila ginagamit? palamuti lang?
-Bakit ung mga shampoo/ conditioner commercials ngayon, obvious na hindi naman totoo ung hair. Parang exaggerated na. Halatang fake.
- Bakit kung kailangan mo makaisip, di ka makaisip?
- Bakit kapag nawala na ang isang tao, saka natin naiisip lahat ng magagandang nagawa nya?
- Bakit, bakit, bakeeeeeet???

Many times, we don't ask because we think we don't deserve to ask.

Have you ever experienced that feeling?

There were times when we pray and ask God for something, we paused because we feel it's a selfish prayer. We think there is someone out there who is more deserving to be answered than us. "It's just me," we think. And because of our way of thinking like that, we never realized that we are rejecting the blessings of God that were supposed to be- not only for us- but to be used as blessings for others.

When I pray, I just tell God that may His plans for me be done because I know his plans are better than mine. I know that even though I may not say anything, He knows how I feel and what I want. But after reading Bo Sanchez' book entitled, "How to Live a Life of Miracles", I suddenly realize that it's not bad to ask. Instead, I should not be afraid to ask. As Patty Hansen quoted, "You create your opportunities by asking for them." How will I know that my prayers are answered if I did not pray for something specific. A blessing may already be given to me by God without me knowing. As adult, we usually don't ask for expectancy. So, we go and pray to God, "Lord, please give me..." And when we don't get it, we say, "It's okay. Maybe it's not meant for me." We quit. Easily. Here's the problem: The universe adjusts to our expectations. If we expect nothing, we get nothing. God is telling us, "My Child, the blessings are here. Stand up! Ask. Not for a bit. Not for a little. But ask for a double portion!"

God wants us to ask. And when we do, we should expect to get it! As Jesus Himself said, "Therefore, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you will receive and it will be yours."

Here's a key principle we need to understand form the book "How to live a Life of Miracles": God wants to bless others through us, but He has to bless us first.

"Your name is already written on every blessing designated for your life"

Bye Zubiri!

Zubiri: Koko Pimentel & I are victims here - I'm a victim because I did not finish my term, he's a victim because he did not start his term.

WRONG! A fake senator courtesy of a fake first gentleman can never be a victim.

"Migz knew all along there was cheating. How could he believe in good faith that 98% voted in Maguindanao and all 98% voted for him? Not one did not vote for him and the votes of 98% were valid. Not one was stray or otherwise invalid. Is that statistically probable? He was not able to get a 100% vote in his own town in Bukidnon, how much more in Maguindanao?"

Migz did not resigned. He made a graceful exit to save face.

Life's Little Instructions

Regardless of the situation, remember that nothing is ever lost by courtesy.

You should never allow anyone to intimidate you.

It’s better to be cheated in price than in quality.

You should never hesitate to do what you know is right.

Success is based on your service to others, not at the expense of others.

We should remember the credo of Walt Disney: THINK. BELIEVE. DREAM. DARE.

Never criticize your country when traveling abroad.

Never ignore an old barking dog.

Look for the opportunity that’s hidden in every adversary.

Ask permission before taking someone’s photograph.

Never underestimate someone with disability.

Seek respect rather popularity.

Seek refinement rather than fashion.

Never forget that it only takes one person or one idea to change your life forever.

Don’t be critical of your partner’s friends.

Respect your elders.

On your birthday, send your mom a thank you card.

Hold yourself the same high standards that you require of others.

Offer hope.

Remember that a lasting marriage is built on commitment, not convenience.

Never tell a salesman how much you want to spend.

Don’t forget that a couple of words of praise or encouragement can make someone’s day.

Remember that cruel words deeply hurt.

Plant a tree the day your child is born.

If it’s not a beautiful morning, let your cheerfulness make it one.

Never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.

Don’t write down anything you don’t want someone else to read.

Remember that life’s most treasured moments often come unannounced.

Ask an older person you respect to tell you his/her greatest regret.

Remember that anything worth doing is going to take longer than you think.

Criticize the behavior, not the person.

Never leave fun to find fun.

Rebuild a broken relationship.

After someone apologizes to you, don’t lecture them.

Be willing to accept a temporary inconvenience for a permanent improvement.

Never make fun of people who speak broken language. It means they know another language.

Never underestimate the influence of the people you have allowed into your life.

Life Lesson: The 21 Commandments

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, “I love you,” mean it.

FIVE. When you say, “I’m sorry,” look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don’t judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, “Why do you want to know?”

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say “bless you” when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R’s: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

I have learned that...

* God didn’t do it all in one day, what makes me think I can?

* No matter how thin you slice it, there will always be two sides.

* Most of the things I worry about never happens.

* You should always leave loved ones with loving words; it could be the last time you’ll see them.

* If you are in a relationship with someone who doesn’t believe in you, you should get out before you stop believing in yourself.

* It’s best to ask for whta you need from your loves ones and not assume that somehow they’ll just know.

* Old age is not a defeat but a victory; not a punishment but a privilege.

* All of the bad four letter words, DIET is the worst.

* No matter how old or experienced you are, you can always learn something from a child.

* An act of love, no matter how great or small, is always appreciated.

* No matter how beautiful your makeup is, it can’t hide the expression of a sad heart.

* No situation is so bad that losing your temper won’t make it worse.

* Most people don’t look for the truths in life; they only search for someone to agree with them.

* Although I can skip class without getting in trouble, there’s still the consequence at exam time.

* People can surprise you. Sometimes, the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

* The greatest test of friendship is to take a vacation together and still like each other when you return.

* A minute of extra thinking beforehand can save hours of worry later.

* All the advice and wisdom in the world cannot help you unless you apply it daily in your life.

* You are never too old to try something new.

* Life is both simple and complicated at the same time. the trick is finding simple truths that are contained in the complicated confusion.

* Good habits are just as hard to break as bad habits.

* The easiest way to find happiness is to stop complaining.

* You can sit and worry until you are physically ill, but worrying doesn’t change things –action does.

* You should keep an open mind, but don’t be so open minded that your brains fall out.

* Perspective is everything. To a worm, digging in the hard ground is more relaxing than going fishing.

* You should be thankful for what you have learned, no matter how much it cost you.

* When I’m angry, I have the right to be angry, but it doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

* Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to means they don’t love you with all they have.

* The best way to learn something is to teach it to someone else.

* It’s worth fighting for causes, but not for people.

* No matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.

* No matter how old I am, I want my mother when I am hurting.

* Whining doesn’t solve problems.

* You should stop asking people for what they cannot give you and be content with what they can give.

* Smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

* I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what to do about it.

* After being on a diet for 2 weeks, all I lose is 14 days.

* In this world, you don’t need a multitude of friends. All you really need is one who will stand by you through thick and thin.

* The greatest physician in the world is OPTIMISM.

* Everyone you meet deserves a smile.

* Love, not time, heals all wounds.

* People always underestimate one’s ability, but what they should never underestimate is the drive behind that ability.

* To ignore the facts doesn not mean to change the facts.

* I don’t have the right to complain about something if I had the power to change it and did not.

* Money does not buy class.

* If you wouldn’t write it down, you probably shouldn’t say it as well.

* The best way to succeed is to do small things well.

* The janitor is the most important person in the building.

* Just because two people argue means they don’t love each other, and just because they don’t argue means they do.

* Being quiet doesn’t necessarily mean you have nothing to say.

* Deciding whom you marry is the most important decision you’ll ever make.

* Every great achievement was once considered impossible.

* The great challenge of life is to decide what’s important and to disregard everything else.

* You shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.

* The more creative you are, the more things you notice.

* You should never be too busy to say “please” and “thank you”.

* You can’t be a hero without taking chances.

* Nothing of value comes without effort.

* Even when I have pains, I don’t have to be a pain.

* You cannot expect others to solve your problems.

* Animals can sometimes warm your heart better than people can.

* You should never go to bed with an argument settled.

* You should always take time to answer children when they ask “why?”

* More comfort doesn’t necessarily mean more happiness.

* The worst pain is to see someone else in pain.

* There’s no substitute for good manners.

* It’s best not to quit at quitting time.

* People are as happy as they decide to be.

* If your life is full of failures, you’re probably not taking enough risks.

* There are 4 ages of men: 1) when he believes in Santa Claus 2) when he stops believing in Santa Claus 3) when He is Santa Claus and 4) when he looks like Santa Claus.

* “Today’s Featured Items” is a euphemism for “things we need to get rid of.”

* Being a success in the office is not worth it if it means being a failure at home.

* The simple things are often the most satisfying.

* If I don’t try new things, I won’t learn new things.

* Good health is true wealth.

* You can keep going long after you think you can’t.

* Success stops when I do.

* People treat me the way I allow them to treat me.

* When someone hurts your feelings, it’s unimportant unless you persist on remembering it.

* My greatest fear is that in the later years, I’ll look back at a long list of things “I never got to do”.

* If I don’t know the answer, it’s best to say “I don’t know.”

* You can’t expect your children to listen to your advice and ignore your example.

* Honesty in little things is not a little thing.

* There is something more painful than hate: indifference

* Indifference, and not hate, is the opposite of love.

* We are responsible for whatever we do, no matter how we feel.

* You must fight for the things you believe in.

* Age is only important if you are cheese.

* When bad things happen to me, I must keep the lesson but throw away the experience.

* If there were no problems, there would be no opportunities.

* Everything sounds romantic in a foreign language, no matter what is said. (except the chinese language hahahaha -ed)

* Making a living is not the same as making a life.

* you can’t please some people — no matter what you do.

* The two happiest days of my life were the day I bought my boat, and the day I sold my boat.

* If you wait until all conditions are perfect before you act, you’ll never act.

* You can either control your attitude, or it controls you.

* Success is more often the result of hard work than of talent.

* The greatest risk is in thinking too small.

* You should fill your life with experiences, not excuses.

* You can have a fancy education and still not be wise.

* When you’ve been angry at someone a long time, it’s easier to stay mad than to make up.

* If you allow someone to make you mad, you have let him/her conquer you.

* You shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands. you need to be able to throw something back.

* There are people who will life for you and will lie to you.

* The best tranquilizer is a good conscience.

* We should be generous with praise, but cautious with promises.

* The faults I have now are exactly the ones my parents tried to correct when I was a child.

* To get the right answer, you have to ask the right question.

* It’s never too late to improve yourself.

* It takes much energy and time to wish as it does to plan.

* We grow only when we push ourselves beyond what we already know.

* When things get easy, it’s easy to stop growing.

* People can change, so give them the benefit of the doubt.

* You can inherit wealth but never wisdom.

* It’s never too late to heal an injured relationship.

* 90% of the things that happen to me are good and only 10% are bad, i just have to focus on the 90%.

* It’s not what happens to people that are important, but what they do about it.

* The best way to appreciate something is to be without it for a while.

* You shouldn’t do anything that wouldn’t make your mother proud.

* If you won’t let your daughter date him, you shouldn’t.

* The only time you’re guaranteed not to get something you want is when you don’t try for it.

* It takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.

* When a father takes a son fishing, the least important thing to either one is whether they catch any fish.

* The biggest regrets in life are the risks you didn’t take.

* Some folks are like the bottom of a fraction, the bigger they try to be, the smaller they really are.

* You have to reach for the stars; they’re not just going to land on your front porch.

* No matter how many tears and sleepless nights you’ve experienced, if you can walk away from a relationship cherishing more than you regret, it is not a waste of time.

* Change is a challenge for the courageous, an opportunity for the alert, and a threat to the insecure.

* If you don’t expect a thank you, giving is easy.

* You can miss a lot of good things in life by having the wrong attitude.

* Two people can look at the same exact thing and see something totally different.

* There are only two classes: first class and no class.

* There should be an 11th commandment: thou shall not whine.

* To save yourself from the price of a face-life, smile a lot.

* By the time I can afford it, i don’t want it anymore.

* Children stop being their children, but you never stop being their mother.

* Wisdom is not how much you know but how you use what you know.

* Maturity does not come with age.

* A best friend is someone who loves you when you forget to love yourself.

* Sometimes, the things that scare you the most turns out to be the best times of your life.

* It’s just important to be friendly to the janitor as it is to be friendly to the company president.

* It’s the teacher, not the subject that makes class interesting.

* It’s easy to be critical about something you’ve never experienced.

Humility

Just wanna share what our priest said in his homily yesterday..

Fr. Dave: "Naniniwala ba kayo na kaya patuloy na naghihirap ang Pilipinas ay dahil sa salitang 'selfishness'? Meron ako nakausap nung isang araw at nabanggit nya sakin na 50 rich families lamang ang nagpapatakbo ng ekonomiya ng Pilipinas. At kung itong 50 mayayaman na pamilya ay magtitipon-tipon, magkakasundo at ibabahagi ang kahit kaunting porsyento ng kanilang yaman sa ating bansa, masosolusyunan natin ang paghihirap na nararanasan natin ngayon."

May point si Father dun! Para sakin, tama sya! Hindi naman nangangailangan na sobrang mayaman ka para makatulong sa nangangailangan. Kahit sa kaunting halaga, makakatulong tayo. Sa bansa natin ngayon, kung saan ang mayaman ay lalong yumayaman at ang mahirap ay lalong naghihirap, isang napakalaking hamon ito. Marami marahil ang magtataas ng kilay sa sinabi ni Father. Baka yung iba isipin na kaya sila yumaman kasi pinaghirapan nila yun at kung naging mahirap ang iba, problema nila yun na hindi sila nagsumikap na umahon sa kanilang buhay. Kung ganito ang magiging pag-iisip natin, hindi talaga tayo uunlad. Sana matuto tayo na kung anong meron, ibahagi natin sa iba. Kung ano man ang mayroon tayo, bigay satin ito ng Maykapal at wala tayong karapatan ipagmalaki at ipagdamot ito sa iba.

Sinabi ni Father sa huli ng kanyang pagbibigay ng homily, "Where there is selfishness, miracles won't happen. Where there is kindness in heart & generosity, everything is possible. Where there are true disciples of Christ, the Master is present. And when the Master is present, miracles are bound to happen."

Sometimes, miracles don't happen in us because maybe God wants us to be a miracle in someone's life. :)

At the end of our life, we shall all be judged by charity. -- St. John of the Cross

Day 206/365

Seeing old couples walk hand in hand never fails to give me the warm fuzzies. They give us hope that lasting relationships do exist.

Ang Modernong Pulubi. Bow!

Naranasan nyo na ba makasalubong ng pulubi tapos mamamalimos sa inyo at binigyan nyo ng barya? Pagkatapos mong bigyan ng barya, may maririnig ka pang "Pwedeng dagdagan?" o kaya "Kuripot naman, piso lang?" Aba choosy na sila ngayon. Kumbaga sa jeep meron na silang minimun fare! Nakakaloka! Kung ang gas nga daw araw-araw kung magtaas sila pa daw ba!

Noon, nahahabag ako pag meron akong nakikitang mga pulubing namamalimos sa mga kalsada o lansangan, sa mga paradahan ng sasakyan at sa iba't ibang lugar na maaaring maging lugar ng palimusan. Nakakalungkot na isipin na naging biktima sila ng magulong lipunan at mga tao. Ang iba sa kanila'y iniwan ng magulang, itinakwil, ipinamigay at inalisan ng karapatan na mamuhay ng may kumpletong pamilya. Marami sa kanila ang di na nakapag-aral, nakapag-asawa sa murang edad at bumuo ng pamlya sa lansangan at marami sa kanila ang nagkaron ng bisyo makatakas lang kahit panandalian sa mga kalupitang dulot ng lipunan.

Hindi ko alam kung maaawa pa ba ko sa mga pulubing nanlilimos o maiinis. Mayroon akong karanasan noon, pagbaba ko ng MRT mayroong batang lumapit sakin at humihingi ng limos eh nagkataon pagbukas ko ng bag mayroon pa pala kong biscuit kaya yun na lang ang inabot ko sa kanya kesa pera baka sa iba nya gastusin. Nagulat ako sa sinagot ng bata, "Ate, ayoko ng biscuit. Gusto ko P5!". Imbis na magpasalamat ang musmos eh nagawa pang magrequest. At mayroon din isang eksena na P2 ang naiabot ko sa bata at ang banat nya sakin eh, "Dagdagan mo Ate, P5 na lang!". Limang-piso na ba ang minimum rate ng mga pulubing nanlilimos ngayon? Nakakaloka! May iba naman na ang lakas ng katawan, pero manlilimos lang kaya nasasabihan sila ng iba na maghanap ng trabaho kaysa umasa sa limos kasi hindi naman sila baldado baka tinatamad lang o wala lang talagang diskarte sa buhay. May ibang bitbit ang anak habang nanlilimos para mas mahabag ang tao sa kanila. Nakakalungkot tingnan ang mga ganitong eksena sa kalsada. Pero nakakainis naman yung ibang bata na binigyan mo ng limos tapos makikita mo lang sumisinghot ng rugby. Yung iba abot-langit ang daing sa buhay dahil hindi alam saan kukuha ng pantustos, nagagawa pang mag-anak ng mag-anak. Ikaw na yung tumtutulong pero may ibang hindi naman ito ginagamit sa tama. May mga pulubing may gana pang magreklamo sa halagang ibinibigay sa kanila.

Naitanong ko sa aking sarili, tama ba na bigyan ko sila? Tama ba na kaawaan sila? Tama ba na mamili pa sila ng ibibigay ng mga tao? Tama ba na sa bisyo nila gastusin ang perang kanilang nilimos? Kung sa bagay, may kanya-kanya tayong pinaghuhugutang problema sa buhay. Mas naging malupit lamang sa kanila ang lipunan o maaring resulta ito ng kanilang personal na choice sa buhay. Sabi nga sa 100 days to Heaven, "Kung ano ang nangyayari sa tao, resulta ito ng kanilang choice." Sa sistema ng gobyerno natin kung saan ang mayayaman ay lalong yumayaman at ang mahihirap ay lalong humihirap, siguradong mas malala at malupit ang nararanasan nilang paghihirap kaysa sa atin. Ilang mamamalimos pa ba ang isisilang sa mundo? Napakasaklap isipin na sa kabila ng buhay na ibinigay sa kanila ay ang pagdanas ng karumal-dumal na paghihirap at pasakit pero sino ba naman tayo para magreklamo, ang mahalaga ay nasilayan natin ang mundong ipinagkaloob ng Diyos at naniniwala ako na kung ano man ang sapitin ng bawat nilalang ay may dahilan. Maaaring hindi natin gusto ngunit kailangan nating tanggapin.

Ligo na U Lapit na Me

Anak ng Bakang Bakla!

Hindi ko aakalain mahuhuli ni Eros Atalia ang kiliti ko sa pagbabasa. May pagkakahawig sila ni Bob Ong na peyborit ko! Makwela, di magalang pero hindi nagsisinungaling. Maihahalintulad ang kanilang mga libro sa mga kending nabibili sa kalsada-mura, accessible at readable. Yung mga idyoma na ginamit ay makulay at makahulugan. Ang mga salita ay payak, pangkaraniwan, bastos pero di masagwa, nakakatuwa, makulit. Yung tipong hindi mo na kailangan pumunta ng National Library para i-research kung ano kahulugan ng salitang ginamit! Marami na kong nabasa na blog reviews tungkol sa libro nya na "Ligo na U Lapit na Me" tapos nung nalaman ko pang ginawa na itong pelikula lalo akong nacurious kaya naisipan kong bumili. Sa pagka-atat ko mabasa, nagpunta ko noon sa NBS at Powerbooks sa Shang kaya lang parehong walang stocks noon at sa malapit na bookstore samin, wala din. Napaisip ako, "Aba, mabenta ha. Puro out of stocks! Mukang maganda nga!" At kahapon lang sya napasa-kamay ko! Sa sobrang atat kong mabasa, habang naglalakad papuntang MRT gang pagbaba ko ng jeep sa kanto malapit samin ay hindi ko pa din mapigilan magbasa sa sabrang pagkaaliw ko dito. Kahit sa panonood ng TV kagabi sinasabayan ko ng pagsilip sa mga pahina ng libro, habang kumakain basa pa din at di ko na namalayan ang oras mag-aalas dose na kaya pinagpaliban ko na para ngayon. At tendenenen! "Tapos ko na!". Hindi ako nanghinayang sa P200 na ginastos ko sa librong ito!

Ang sabi sa back cover ng librong ito, “ Paano mo malalaman kung hindi ka magtatanong? Pero andami-dami nating nalalaman kahit hindi tayo nagtatanong. Paano ka pa magtatanong kung alam mo na ang sagot? Pero paano ka magtatanong kung hindi mo alam kung ano ang iyong itatanong? Paano mo sasagutin ang tanong sa iyo kung hindi mo alam ang isasagot? Paano ka sasagot kung hindi mo alam ang itatanong? (Kunsabagay sa buhay na ito, madalas tama ang sagot, mali nga lang ang tanong.)

At sa ending, bitin ako. Bitin na bitin! Para akong nanood ng sine na abangan ang Part 2. Ang dami ko tuloy naging tanong din! Ang dami dami kong tanong lalo na tungkol kay Intoy. Nakahanap na kaya siya ng trabaho? Nakalimutan na ba niya si Jen? Nakausap na ba niya si Jen? Hinanap pa ba ng mga kaklase nila si Jen sa kanya? Active na rin ba siya sa Praise the Lord ng mga magulang niya? Gaano naman kaya ang itinaba niya simula ng maging bum siya? Madalas na ba niyang maka-usap si Benson (John Lennon) sa labasan ng bahay nila? Ano naman kaya ang iba pa niyang pananaw sa ekonomiya ng Pilipinas sa punto ng nakatira sa isang Third World na subdivision? At, bakit kailangang bitinin pa ako ni Intoy sa dulo?

Nagustuhan ko ang akdang ito ni Eros Atalia dahil (para sa kin) umiikot ang tema nito sa kahalagahan ng pagsasabi ng pagmamahal sa isang tao, pag-iingat sa friends with benefits and perks (hanggang dun lang, bawal mainlove) at ang kahalagahan ng pagkakaroon ng closure sa isang relasyon, anumang label nito. (At kung makapabigay ako ng review tungkol sa librong ito ay akala mong na-inlab na ang 'cornyvorous' na tulad ko! LOL!)

Ang galing ni Sir Eros Atalia kasi nadala niya ako sa ibang mundo. Ang galing ng utak nya! Napakahusay parang nakikipag-usap yung libro! Mapapasagot ka sa mga tanong nya dito at mapapatango sa mga ideya nya! Panalo ang librong ito dahil hindi ito natakot gumamit ng mga barubal na salita pero kung tutumbukin mo ay may laman!

Aabangan ko ang kasunod na kabanta nito! Peksman!

Bili na U! Dali! :) Kwentuhan Us! :)

Sadness strikes!

Shocks! Minsan lang ako tamaan ng sobrang lungkot kasi madalas naman pag dumarating yan sa buhay ko pinipilit ko mag-isip ng mga nakakatuwa. I always try my best to not entertain that thought. Pero ewan ko sa araw na 'to kung bakit ganito ako. Siguro dahil sa panahon; mahangin kasi sa labas at kulimlim. Waaaaahhhh ayoko ng ganito! Usually pag tinatamaan ako ng ganito, nag-oopen lang ako FB, twitter, tumblr or nagbabasa ng ibang blog. Pero lahat yun nagawa ko na ngayon pero ang lungkot ko pa din! Epekto ba to ng walang lovelife??? Tae! Marahil. Malamang. Baka. Siguro! Hay Ewan!!!! Gusto ko na mag-uwian! :)

I claim it!

I love this passage from the Bible that says, " Whatever it is the you pray with faith, you will received"

Thank you Lord, for all the blessings you shower me whether it is big or small, my gratitude is overflowing!

Lord, you know what's going on my mind and what's my desires in my heart. I know you listen. You know what's my feelings before I say it out to you. And I trust you. I offer you my life. I know your plans are greater than mine. Whatever it is that you planned for me, may I accept it with my whole heart and mind and soul. Thank you for the patience. I know in your perfect time, everything will be going well in my life. I claim it and I know you will give it to me.

Always teach me to be generous, to be humble and to be faithful! :)

I want to ask for forgiveness for everything that I've done wrong. I am not perfect. But thank you for giving me a strong conscience and wisdom. Continue to guide and bless me together my family and friends and all of the people. :)

I LOVE YOU LORD BIGTIME. I WILL FOREVER TRUST YOU! :)

Ang iPod at ako!

Hindi ako magaling kumanta, hindi ko rin pwedeng sabihing marunong ako. Oo, adik ako sa music at mamamatay ako pag wala akong dalang iPod pag lalabas ako ng bahay. Minsan kahit wala akong earphone feeling ko meron! Nagagalit na nga Nanay ko, minsan kasi dada sya ng dada di ko naman naririnig. LOL! :) Bingi na nga yata ko kasi pag nakikinig ako Volumes Up to the Max! hahaha..

Mahilig ako sa lumang kanta. May ibang kanta na sumikat noong panahon pa ng 70' and 80's pero hindi ibig sabihin eh naabutan ko nung sumikat ang mga kantang ito. Masarap lang pakinggan yung luma. Kalmado lang. Steady kumbaga! Chill lang! Iba ang lumang music, may mararamdaman kang passion sa kumakanta, may hugot sa puso, at may pagbibigay halaga sa salitang damdamin. Siguro dahil kokontii lang ang singers dati kaya magagaling sila. Ngayon kasi kahit "Boses Plemahin" basta sikat gagawan ng album. Susmaryosep!

Rock, Alternative at Punk. nagulat ba kayo? Pero totoo, mahilig din ako sa ganitong klaseng music. Hindi naman kasi ko minsan nagjajudge ng kanta base sa beat, sa ganda ng melody pero dahil gusto ko yung lyrics at meaning nung kanta.

Lovesongs. Minsan feel na feel ko makinig kahit yung sinasabi nung kanta eh di ko pa naranasan. Masarap lang makinig minsan para feel mo na din nain-love ka o inlove ka! Once in a while masarap kiligin! chos! Music is my boyfriend ang drama rama!

Christian songs. Eto hindi ko na mabilang ang nagtanong sakin ng , "Born Again ka teh?" tuwing pineplay ko o nakikinig ako sa Hillsongs United. I'm Catholic! Masarap lang talaga pakinggan kanta nila. Nakakainspire! Nakaka-goodvibes! Try nyo! Matutuwa si Papa God! :)

Pop. RNB. Hiphop. peyborit ko mga genre na toh! Nakakaboost ng energy. Nakakarelax. Kahit minsan di maganda ung lyrics pero maganda yung beat/melody pak na!

OPM. still OPM rocks! Tangkilikin ang sariling atin. Pero minsan nakakalungkot lang kasi madami ngayon artists gumagawa na lang ng revivals o cover ng ibang artists. Sana madami pa yung gumawa ng originals. Magaling ang mga Pinoy. We are all musically inclined. Kumbaga na sa atin dugo na yung love for music. KAhit anong emosyon, kahit anong sitwasyon meron kanta dyan ang Pinoy!

Weird man ang choice of music ko, or masyado mang malawak ang trip kung music sa buhay. Isa lang ang mahalaga para sa akin, ang music ay parang "Vitamins" ng buhay. Hindi ibig sabihing pag malungkot ang kanta ay malungkot din ang mood mo, minsan may mga mahahalagang mga pangyayari sa buhay natin ang ating naaalala dahil sa mga kanta. Hindi dahil sa mensahe ng kanta mismo, pero dahil eto ang kanta ng nangyari ito, o eto ang kanta sa FX/jeep na sinasakyan mo papuntang MRT, habang katabi mo ang kras mo.

Kahit minsan, hindi tayo iniwan ng musika, andiyan sila sa bawat gabing unan lang ang kasama, sa gabing sumisigaw ka sa buong mundo na masaya ka, andiyan siya sa bawat pagkikita ng magkaka-ibigan, sa lahat ng reunion, sa lahat ng family gathering at kahit sa mismong Kasal o sa Kamatayan. Sa bawat mahalagang parte ng buhay mo.

Baket????

Bakit sa panahon ngayon ang internet ay isa ng necessity sa buhay na pag nawala parang sobrang kulang na ang araw.. Ako, aminado ako na daily routine ko na sya.. Kumbaga nakalista na sya sa Activities of Daily Living ko.. Pag hindi ako nakapaglog-in sa Facebook at Tumblr in a day, hindi ako mapakali.. Parang kulang lagi.. Saka pag ngayon, pag minsan may pumasok sa isip ko at gusto kong sabihin hindi ko maiwasan i-post toh dito sa Tumblr or sa FB.. Masaya pero minsan napapaisip ako bakit parang magnet sya na pilit kang hinihila.. Ilang beses ko na sinabi I will abstain on using internet pero bigo ako.. Kasi sa work ko pag wala ako magawa haharap lang ako sa computer at magiinternet na.. Pampalipas oras na! At boom! Tumblr at FB lagi ang una kong inoopen. Baket???? And I don’t know why! LOL!

Kahapon pinost ko yung video about Social Networking Etiquette! Guilty ako dun kasi ung iba dun ginagawa ko pero may ilang tao na sumusobra naman.. At lahat ng sobra ay masama.. Tama na yung nagpost ka ng pictures sa album sa FB.. Pero wag naman ung ipopost mo pa ulit ito isa-isa via share.. Hayaan mo na lang buksan ung album mo ng gustong tumingin. Tama na ung nagpost ka dito sa tumblr pero wag mo na iconnect sa FB.. kasi pinost mo na dito ipopost mo pa sa FB.. tapos ung pinost mo sa twitter nakakonek din sa FB.. nagflaflood ka na! At minsan sabay2 mo silang gamit lahat! pagbigyan mo naman ung ibang post ng iba na makita! Kung may galit ka dun mo ipost sa wall ng kaaway mo wag sa Newsfeed! Kasi wala kaming pakialam sa kaaway mo.. Kayong dalawa ang mag-usap! Meron din naman, sila na nagpost sila din maglalike sila din nagcocomment sa post nila. Paulit-ulit teh??? Saka nakakainis nga yung pabago-bago ng relationship status.. Ngayon in a relationship after 30 mins single after 30 mins it's complicated!!! Papansin teh???

Pero we have our freedom of speech.. Di natin maiiwasan o mapipigilan kung ano man gustong ilagay, sabihin at ipakita ng ibang tao. Ang sakin lang let’s know our limitation.. :) Minsan kasi baka tayo lang ang natutuwa pero ung mga nakakakita at nakakabasa pala hindi.. Ilagay din natin sa lugar.

Ang sa akin lang… Chos!

I love my sibs..

It’s wonderful how my sibs and I can talk now about almost anything and be each other’s confidant when before, we were each other’s constant enemies. :) We give each other advices, we cover up for each other, we make each other laugh, we discuss things over midnight snacks. And though we don’t tell that we love each other, we know we do. :)

What I look for..

sabi ni Bo, write down the traits you're looking for your "The One". so eto ang mga lists ko!

- Someone who has great sense of humor is a major major turn on for me. Kasi ako yung tipo ng tao na mababaw lang kaligayahan. Saka gusto ko laging tumatawa. Gusto ko masaya!
- Someone who is God-fearing. Syempre gusto ko yung taong may faith kay God. Importante yun sakin! Gusto ko si God yung Center namin!
- Someone who loves his family. Kasi ako family oriented. Gusto ko pag naging kami, maging close kami sa pamilya ng isa't isa. Saka sabi din nila you will know the real character of a person on how he deals with her family. Saka malalaman mo kung pano ka ittreat nung lalake on how he treats her mother and female siblings.
- Someone who has a sense of responsibility. Gusto ko yung taong may direksyon sa buhay. Yung may pangarap, yung may stable na trabaho para pag nagkapamilya kakayanin namin pareho!
- Someone who is nice. Hindi naman sobrang bait, yung sakto lang. Ayoko sa mayabang.
- Someone who will continously date me pag kami na. Yung sweet pa din kahit hindi na nanliligaw.

Ako na choosy! Hahahaha

When will it be me,,.

Sometimes, I ask that question, "When will it be me?". When will I be the one someone's dreaming of? When will I be happy because someone special is making me happy? When will I be in a relationship? pak! Sometimes, I also keep on questioning myself, "Is there something wrong with me? Why does it took so long for that someone to come into my life?" Then, I realized that maybe God is really preparing me for the best. Not really someone who is perfect but maybe someone who is really my best match!:) Someone who I may have my share of differences but we'll learn from each other, someone who may have my share of similarities and we will enjoy each and every day that we're together. Someone who is God fearing and through our faith in God, we'll last forever. Someone who has great sense of humor, who will not make any day that we're together a dull moment. Dear Lord, when he will be coming??? hahaha.. Could he come here now because I want to spend forever with him!:)

On hiatus mode on Facebook

I realized that everyday, every single day, I can't help myself to open my facebook, check it and post something on it. Yesterday, it just popped up on my mind na "Uy Germaine, adik ka na sa facebook! Post ka ng post!". So starting today, I will be on "on hiatus mode". Meaning I will minimize the times I will open it, post and comment on it! Gusto ko nga ideactivate eh pero mukang mahirap! On minimal use na lang for the meantime. LOL!

Another reason is, yung taong rason kung bakit ako nagpopost dun eh meron ng girlfriend! pak! Ayoko muna makita! (drama rama mode?)

Bye FB for now.. I will miss you and I know you'll miss me too!:)

Happily Single!

“I’m happily single. Because God is with me, I’m complete. I’m whole. I’m happy! And God is guiding me to my best path. God’s goodness and blessings follow me all the days of my life. He is guiding my decisions. And I believe I’m being prepared for marriage. I’m being trained for parenthood. I’m not just searching for the right partner, I’m also preparing myself to be the right partner for my future spouse. By becoming the best person I can become, I’m attracting that special person into my life. My future is in God’s big hands. He is now filling my future with abundance, joy, and love.”

How to Find your One True Love

Step 1: Take Responsibility for Finding Your One True Love

Be deliberate about getting married. Don't give God the Responsibility He gave you.

So I shall get up and go through the city; in the streets and in the squares, I shall seek my sweetheart (Song of Songs 3:2)

Call to Action
1. Form a Support team around you.
2. Grow your Character (be a better person).
3. Get Emotionally Healthy
4. Know Your Self - Fo you to knwo what you want and dont want.

Step #2: Know What's Stopping You Inside

Identify your Internal Blocks and Self-Imposed Prisons of Fears

"he who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways, will receive anything from the Lord. (James 1:6-7)

1. Are you the Mark or Mindy the Mouse? The Problem of Low Self-Worth and the Fear of Rejection.

2. Are you Carl the Family Crutch? The Problem of Enmeshed Family Relationships and the Fear of Guilt.

3. Are You Tess and Trisha the Traumatized? The Problem of Traumas of Childhood and the Fear of More Pain

4. Are You Jim the Jellyman? The Problem of No Backbone and the Fear of Commitment.

5. Are You Belle the Brokenhearted? The Problem of Being Attached to Past Hurts and the Fear of Hurting Again.

6. Are You the Ludy the Luggage Lady? The Problem of Being Attached to Dead-End Relationships and the Fear of Losing Even That.

7. Are you Danny and Doreen the Distant? The Problem of Isolation and the Fear of Intimacy

8. Are You Janice the Undecided? The Problem of Being Attached to Limbo and the Fear of Making Mistakes

Above issues are not profitable - Spiritually, socially, financially, emotionally, and physically. Remove your inner blocks in your life
Heal what needs to be heald
Work on your self, be a better person, that makes all prettier.
And then move on and share your blessedness.

Step #3: Talk to Lots of Gentlemen/Ladies

Don't search for a Spouse. Search Instead for Self - Knowledge, Fun and Friends.

"Let your acquaintances be many . . . . " (Sirach 6:6)

This is to correct the Myth #2: There's One Person Out There Meant for Me.

Call to Action :

Action #1. Go to Where the GOOD Guys/Gals Go.

Action #2. Clarify Your Purpose - Your Talking to Friends, Not to a Potential Spouse.

Five Fantastic Reasons:
1. You'll Grow as a Person.
2. You'll get to know yourself more and be a better person by getting feedback from emotionally healthy friends
3. You get to understand the opposite sex more.
4. You meet lots of New Friends.
5. You'll have a good time.

Action #3. Aim to Talk to Three Single Men/Ladies a Week

Action #4. Through Your Actions, Tell Single Men/Ladies "It's Okay. You Can Talk to me" Smile

Action #5. Get Involved in Projects Together. You will get to know the person more in time of stress and celebrate fruitfulness together.


STEP #4: Have as Many Friendly Dates as Humanly as Possible

You don't have to call them dates. Call them chats and chill over a meal or cup of coffee. Have dates with your family and friends, to get to know people more and yourself more.

"For from the fullness of the heart the mouth speaks" Matthew 12:34

Six Rules of Friendly Dates

1. You Remove the Romance from the Picture.

2. You Don't Use Your Potential - Husband/wife Checklist

3. You have Friendly Dates with Almost Anyone at Least Once or Twice.

4. You Commit Not to Enter into Any Exclusive Relationship for Six Months.

5. Accept That There Are Still Risks of Getting Hurt.

6. You Decide by the Second Date If You Wish to Continue Meeting or Not

For detailed explanation, please buy the book.
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Happy Dating and GOD Bless

Miss ko na sya..

Posible pa lang mamiss mo yung taong hindi mo pa naman nakikita. I mean kilala mo lang pero wala kayong personal closeness sa isa't isa.

All of a sudden all I think about is him. Chos! Hindi na sya madalas maglike at comment sa posts ko sa fb! :( Meron na kaya syang girlfriend? Naiisip din kaya ko nun? Hay leche! parang hayskul lang eh noh!

God's message to me

One day, you will meet the person who will not even think twice about praying for a future with you. Who will believe by faith and through grace that you are worth it. And you will be that person's FIRST choice because for that person you will be the BEST. And through that person, I will make you see why it did not work out with anyone else. But most of all, through that person, I will let you know just how big I am, and just how real my love is for you. I just need you to WAIT.

- God

World's Greatest Mom!

All of us would say that our mothers are the best! Yeah Right! No one could ever replace the love that our mothers showed us. From the time they conceived us until now they never stop caring for us. The hardest job in the world is definitely to become a mother. And I saw that to my Mom. She's the BESTEST MOM anyone could ever have. Some people tell her that she's so lucky that she got a daughter like me and sons like my siblings. But I just want to let them know that we are the ones who are very blessed to have her cos we would never be who we were now if not because of her.

She's the wind beneath my wings. She's my mother. She's my best friend. She's my everything! Everyday I pray and thank God for giving me a mother whose patience is very unbeatable, whose love is very unconditional, whose kindness is overflowing, whose understanding is very broad! I know I'm not perfect nor my mom also. But we've got the coolest relationship any daughter and mother would wish to have. We never hesitate to share our feelings. We also have some petty quarrels from time to time but that's part of life. God did not only gave me a mother but she also sent a best friend through my Mom. I'm so proud of her. I always ask her how she manages to be that strong against all the odds. I salute her for being tough and for being so God fearing. I will surely cherish all the values she have instilled in us. Mommy, just want to let you know that me and your two boys are so proud that we were born by you and I'm sure Daddy is so grateful that she got you as his wife cos despite of everything you've been through, your love for him never stops! In you I've learned that no matter how much pain a person have caused you but if you really love him, you will still accept him for whatever flaws he may have.

We love you!

Cheers to all the Moms! :) Advance Happy Mother's Day!

My Kuya!

You know what's great about having a brother? You also have a friend. :)

The God that I know...

I came across Direk Joey Reyes’ blogspot today. He’s one of those great directors that our country have and now, I’ve found out his amazing writing skills! He wrote a wonderful article there entitled ‘The God that I know’ (http://chokingonmyadobo.blogspot.com/2011/03/god-that-i-know.html).

Inspired by what he wrote, I’ve decided to also write my own perspectives about the God that I know.

I was born and raised a Catholic. I studied elementary and highschool in a Catholic School and even college. Every Sunday, we attend Mass. In our school, there is always a First Friday Masses that we should attend to and there is a 3 o’clock habit every afternoon. Every month of October, we religiously pray the rosary because it’s Holy Rosary Month. And in our subdivision, I am part of the choir (though I’m not good in singing) and sometimes I used to be a reader during Mass. So practically, I was raised in a conservative and spiritual way and I’m happy about that. I behave as best as I can and do what I see as good not because of my ‘fear of the lord’. I do so because I am in awe of God and His unconditional love.

For me, regardless of religions we have and rituals that we do, what matters most is we believe that we have God. The God who is the reason of everything. The God who made us. The God who blessed us. The God who give us trials. The God who answers our prayers. The God who sent His only begotten Son to save us from our sin. The God who keeps us alive. The God who unconditionally loves us.

The God that I know is the God who is always there with me. The God that I run to when I need someone to talk to. The God who never fails me to forgive despite of the wrong things I’ve done. The God who always guide me. The God who continually gives me struggles to make me a better person. The God who always listens. The God whom I may never see but His presence is always felt. The God that I know loves me so much. :)

As Jim Paredes said in one of his artcle, “Often, what religion does is to franchise what is already self-evident and accessible to anyone, everyone. Just like franchises, some people like McDonalds. Some like Jollibee. And there are some who like their own hamburger with ingredients they discover by themselves and that’s healthy for them.”

God speaks through many books, not just the Bible, and not just through certain people. God also speaks through me and you. And God has not stopped talking. God will always be engaging us.

Yeah!

I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking. I mean like…Why would they even do that? I’m just me. Nothing extraordinary, or special.

I think I'm numb..

People may see me as a jolly person. I used to laugh and joke around with them. I am the one who listens to their problems, comfort them when they needed it. But me I used to keep my problems by myself cos I don't want to be a burden to them. They do not know that I'm also fighting a battle. You know deep in you, you have problems of your own that you need to face but you have to be tough and look as if nothing happened to be able to give strength to people around you. That's the story of my life!

When I'm having conversation with God, I always say that I'm grateful and blessed that He trust me a lot that He gave me struggles to become a much better and stronger individual. Through them, it drives me closer to Him.

God, you know how I feel at this moment. It's hard to cry at night wishing and praying that everything will be alright. I love my Dad. I love my Mom. It hurts to see them struggling and I'm afraid to see them going apart. I know how much my Mom fought to save their marriage. But I think my Dad doesn't appreciate and see all our efforts. But I believe everything happens for a reason.

This kind of problem doesn't happen only in our family. I know many couples are encountering also this kind of dilemma. I entrust everything to you God. I know your plans are greater than ours. Better days will come soon! :)

Nobody knows it but me!

Nobody knows how many times I've faked a smile, how many times I've cried, how many times I've been hurt. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back my tears, how many times I've been let down, how many times I've been walked out on. Nobody knows how many times I've felt like falling apart but I keep it together for those around me, how many times I've been kicked when I was down, how many times I scream. Nobody knows how many times I've forgotten how it feels to be happy, or how long I've been waiting for things to get better. Sometimes I wonder who knows the difference between how I pretend I feel and how I truly feel.

Valentines?? Pagkain ba yun???

Hahahahaha... As in natawa ko sa likepage na yan sa FB.. "Valentines?? Pagkain ba yun???"

Shocks! Feb 14.. Always Alone ang emote ko! I'm looking forward for the day that I will celebrate Valentine's Day with my special someone! Hindi naman siguro naiirita sakin si Lord.. Every time that I pray lagi ko pinagdadasal na sana dumating na sya.. Kamusta 24 na aketch going 25! Sana ibigay na ni Lord.. para age 28 papakasal na ko! Charot! Joke lang! Excited ka teh??? hahahaha..

Basta darating din yan.. Chill lang muna ako.. :) I let God be the author of my Love Story.. cos I know he's preparing the BEST for me! pak! Bongga yun!

Thank you Lord!

Thank you Lord for the good news I received last Saturday! I waited for it for months and I finally got response from the Canadian Embassy that I am now entitled to take the SPEAK test exam and if I passed it (I will!), next is the medical and then Visa!

I hope to see Canada this year!!!

Lord thank you for the good things that is happening in my life now. You're so awesome!

Things I want to accomplish this year 2011

So here I made a list of things I want to have, do and accomplish this year!


- Buy new phone.
- Go out of town- somewhere far from the metro!
- Have a vacation out of the country.
- Learn to cook.
- Find a new job!
- Hopefully, my papers for Canada be released so I can finally go and work there!
- Fall in love! hahaha.. Praying to meet that someone this year! :P
- Save more money!

When loneliness strikes me...

There are days that I try to laugh with people but you know that deep inside me, I'm shattered into pieces. To be honest, I'm really happy naman with my life. No regrets or whatsoever. I'm blessed that I have what I have right now. But there are times especially that when you're surrounded with people who are so happy because they have their someone special beside them. You're acting like it's okay but in your mind you're thinking you want to have that someone also beside you.

wapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk! ang emo na naman!

Lapit na kasi Valentine's eh.. and for my 24 years of existence never pa ko lumabas and nakipagdate sa araw na 'to! hahahaha... Hopeless romantic talaga ang emote eh noh! hahahaha.. But I know someday (lapit na) magkakaron na din ako kadate pag Valentine's and I will be the luckiest, happiest, most loved girl pag nangyari yun! chos!

Dear Lord, sana ibigay nyo na po sya.. Ayaw ko naman pong tumandang dalaga!!! hahahahaha... :)

Random Thoughts..

The other night, I was having a hard time making myself sleep. So what I did, I turned on my Ipod and listen to random songs. And while listening, many thoughts came flashing. I then realized that I'm going 25 later this year and I can't believe that! (hahaha.. in denial) But honestly, I keep on asking myself 5 years from now, where will I be???? Am I going to be a full time nurse working in a hospital abroad or here in the Philippines? Am I going to pursue my dreams like to become a photographer and a traveller? Will I have a different career far away from my profession right now? Will I be establishing my own family by that time? Thinking about my future makes me feel excited but at the same time afraid. Afraid, because what if all my plans will not be realized soon. I dunno! I have a lot of dreams and plans for my future but I'm too afraid to step out my comfort zone!

I will just take it one day at a time! hahaha.. :)

I am..

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems.I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.