do you have a boyfriend yet?

a single girl’s most feared question…

…Yeah, sometimes it gets lonely, but I live for the hope that someday I’ll fall in love and it’ll be perfect.

Whatever comes my way I'm okay with it..

I know I’m right where I belong
But sometimes when I’m not that strong…
I Wish I’d done a little bit more.


… I’m not completely sure of what i want with my life actually, and I still feel that emptiness sometimes but what I know now is that , this life right now is what i want, this is what I decided to be, this life that I’m living right now, the person that I am, the place where I live, the people I am with, and all that is happening in my life right now…this is it! this is what I want with my life. I want to accept it as it is. there maybe something more that I desire or need but i will deal with it everyday, and work for it. i was blinded to look too much about what i want with my life, without realizing that I have so much more to be thankful for, that my life is the life that I want to be. And right now whatever comes my way I am okay with it:)

Living the dream

It been months since I last visited this blog. And there are lots of changes that had happened to me since then and I want to update you guys!

I'm here in Canada now. A dream before and now it become a reality already! I made it here. Thank God for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me. You are really an Awesome God. I've been here for more than a month now. And do you wanna know if I miss the Philippines??? Definitely a big YES! I miss my family and friends there bigtime.

It's been a struggle for me to leave our country and go here to find a better future but I know in God's time, everything will be well in His plan. I've been so dependent with my parents for the longest time and now that I've been away from them, I learned to be independent and make my own decisions which I like because I can say that now I can apply those things and values that they have taught me before and this will help me to be a better individual. I'm so grateful that I have Aunts, Uncles and cousins here who are very supportive and very generous of me. I've been so lucky that I was able to live here in Canada knowing that this is one of the best country in the world to live in.

There will be more challenges that will come my way. I know I can make it. I can reach my goals and make my parents proud! :)

Canada is nice country. Really the best! But nothing beats the fun in the Philippines.

I'll see you soon! :)

This is it!

Honestly, I can't explain how I'm feeling right now. Tomorrow, I'll be leaving this country. I'm leaving my family. And it's a first time to be away! I'm happy because God granted my wish and we've been waiting this for so long. But I'm sad to be away from my loved ones. Ever since the day began, (Hahahaha) I've been dependent to my family. This time, it's gonna be me only. I like the idea that I'll be able to practice now how to be independent and to decide on my own. I'm going to make my dreams a reality sooon!:)

I'm so blessed that I was given a chance to see and work in one of the best country in the world. At first, this gonna be tough but I know I can get through it. Just like what my cousin, Steph, told me, "Ate En its a new adventure not an ending. That's the thing about family, you can always come home! you are gaining another home not losing one!" I'm excited for a new life, new home, new work, new friends, new adventures.

Thank you God! Please guide me on my new endeavor! To God be the Glory!:)

Dearest God,

September ends in a few days! How time really flies so fast. But first, I want to thank you. Thank you for all the blessings you have bestowed upon me and my family each and every day. I'm sorry for the times I've done wrong to others that might offend you. Please help me to be a good child of yours everyday. God, I know many are praying for you every seconds and even though I don't write my prayer or utter it in words you already know what's my desires. God, I'm praying that my visa be granted today. May I receive it before this week ends. God, you know how much I wanted it! It's hard to be away with my family but I'm looking forward to give them the best life that they deserve especially my parents. I have hope and I have faith that you will grant it to me. Thank you in advance my dearest Lord! :)

#onlyinthephilippines

Despite of the not-so-good news that we heard on the radio and seen on the television everyday, I think we deserve to laugh once in a while and forget those problems.

One fine afternoon out of boredom again [dapat lagi akong bored para may naiisip akong isulat], I typed #onlyinthephilippines on my twitter search and I found these humorous and very true infos that are really only in the Philippines and I wanna share it with you guys! :)

• where family and faith are the center of lives, making us one of the most hospitable people in the world. :) #onlyinthephilippines
• where it's summer all year round and Christmas comes 3 months earlier than the restt of the world. #onlyinthephilippines
• where people would find the smallest things to be happy about even in the saddest situations. :) #onlyinthephilippines
• home of the most hardworking people around the globe. #onlyinthephilippines #OFW
• where everyone is born an artist. from karaoke to videoke. walang sinabi ang American Idol #onlyinthephilippines
• jeeps are #onlyinthephilippines be proud of the 'paki-abot please!'
• kahit walang pera kapag fiesta, mangungutang para may panghanda, magcelebrate and magpasalamat #onlyinthephilippines
• ikaw na ang inutangan, ikaw pa ang mahihiyang maningil #onlyinthephilippines
• home of luksong baka, patintero, piko and other unique sports that give us our character #onlyinthephilippines
• we're very happy people. doesn't matter kung may bagyo, lindol o baha #onlyinthephilippines
• the home of the Pound for Pound King, Most talented kids, Land of the Mother of democracy #onlyinthephilippines
• the home of adobo, sinigang and kare-kare, some of the most delicious dishes in the world. #onlyinthephilippines
• #onlyinthephilippines where cars are important than pedestrians
• #onlyinthephilippines simbang gabi and no one observes lenten season better than pinoys!
• #onlyinthephilippines where children use "po" and "opo" as signs of respect to the others.

Be proud to be Pinoy! I'm proud to be one! :)

#HelpDOT

My "Bakit" List

This has nothing to do with the movie "The Bucket List". Just because I'm bored and I'm thinking of a topic to kill boredom, this "Bakit" List came up my mind. Kung yung Bucket list ay listahan ng mga bagay na gusto mong gawin bago ka mamatay [i've done this before! i've listed 100 things there!], itong Bakit list ko ay listahan ng mga samu't saring tanong ko na resulta lang ng makulit kong pag-iisip! Mga tanong na hindi ko matanong. Mga tanong na ewan ko ba kung tanong nga ba. Mga tanong na hindi ko alam kung may matinong kasagutan. Mga tanong na wala lang masabi lang na nagtanong ako. :P

Oh heto na!

- Bakit madalas kapag may hinahanap tayo, hindi natin mahanap-hanap pero pag hindi naman natin hinahanap biglang sisipot?
- Bakit kapag sumagot tayo ng telephone, "Hello" lagi sagot natin?
- Bakit daw kapag hindi ka swerte sa pag-ibig swerte ka raw sa pera? Meron namang swerte sa dalawa meron din namang hindi swerte sa dalawa? Sino ba tong nagsasabi-sabi ng ganyan?
- Bakit may mga taong ang lakas mang-asar pero kapag sila ang inasar mo ang bilis nila mapikon? Pikon Talo!
- Bakit ba yung karamihan sa mga mahihirap lahat na lang ng problema nila sinisi sa gobyerno. Hindi naman ang gobyerno ang nanganak ng sandosena di ba?
- Bakit yung mga pulubi ngayong bigyan mo ng pagkain ayaw tanggapin? Choosy na? Para silang jeep, may minimun fare! Kaloka!
-Bakit kapag gwapo ang may crush sa iyo umiikot ang mundo mo sa saya, pero kapag pangit ang may crush sa iyo, umiikot ang tiyan mo sa kaba?
- Bakit mahirap matulog pag gutom?
- Bakit masarap matulog pag umuulan?
- Bakit may mga panahon na gusto mong matulog, pero hindi ka maantok. Meron naman antok na antok ka pero di ka makatulog? Labo!
- Bakit may mga taong allergy sa masasarap na pagkain, pinaparusahan ba sila ni God?
- Bakit kapag inutangan tayo, parang tayo pa minsan ang nahihiyang maningil sa kanila?
- Bakit pag di kagandahan o kagwapuhan ang tao na pinapadescribe sayo, ang sagot mo "Mabait sya"?
- Bakit ung 7eleven eh 24/7 open? Wala lang, trip ko lang tanungin!
- Bakit ang hirap maging babae kapag torpe yung lalake?
- Bakit may mga taong tatanungin ka pa kung anong ginagawa mo eh kita na naman nila kung ano ginagawa mo?
- Bakit dito sa Pinas madalas pag nag-announce ang PAG-ASA ng Typhoon Signals and Classes Suspensions, sya namang labas ni Haring Araw? Nang-aasar lang!
- Bakit may mga lalaking gusto ng maraming asawa, isa pa nga lang mahirap na eh? Dagdagan pa?
- Bakit Bahaghari ang tagalog ng Rainbow? Parang ang baho!
- Bakit nung bata tayo, tinuturuan tayo maglakad. Ngayong lumaki na tayo, pahirapan naman magpaalam kapag may lakad?
- Bakit nung bata tayo, pinapatulog tayo sa tanghali. Ngayong matanda na tayo, nasasabihan tayong tamad pag natulog tayo ng tanghali?
- Bakit kapag naghihintay ka ng elevator parating may pindot ng pindot ng button? Kahit ilang pindot mo hindi bibilis ang pagdating ng elevator!
- Bakit ba yung mga sumasakay sa MRT ayaw pumasok sa loob, lahat gusto sa may pintuan! Eh kung gawin na lang kayang isang mahabang pintuan yung tren ng di kayo magsiksikan sa pinto!
- Bakit maraming nakasabit ngayon sa mga bags na hand sanitizer? di naman nila ginagamit? palamuti lang?
-Bakit ung mga shampoo/ conditioner commercials ngayon, obvious na hindi naman totoo ung hair. Parang exaggerated na. Halatang fake.
- Bakit kung kailangan mo makaisip, di ka makaisip?
- Bakit kapag nawala na ang isang tao, saka natin naiisip lahat ng magagandang nagawa nya?
- Bakit, bakit, bakeeeeeet???

Many times, we don't ask because we think we don't deserve to ask.

Have you ever experienced that feeling?

There were times when we pray and ask God for something, we paused because we feel it's a selfish prayer. We think there is someone out there who is more deserving to be answered than us. "It's just me," we think. And because of our way of thinking like that, we never realized that we are rejecting the blessings of God that were supposed to be- not only for us- but to be used as blessings for others.

When I pray, I just tell God that may His plans for me be done because I know his plans are better than mine. I know that even though I may not say anything, He knows how I feel and what I want. But after reading Bo Sanchez' book entitled, "How to Live a Life of Miracles", I suddenly realize that it's not bad to ask. Instead, I should not be afraid to ask. As Patty Hansen quoted, "You create your opportunities by asking for them." How will I know that my prayers are answered if I did not pray for something specific. A blessing may already be given to me by God without me knowing. As adult, we usually don't ask for expectancy. So, we go and pray to God, "Lord, please give me..." And when we don't get it, we say, "It's okay. Maybe it's not meant for me." We quit. Easily. Here's the problem: The universe adjusts to our expectations. If we expect nothing, we get nothing. God is telling us, "My Child, the blessings are here. Stand up! Ask. Not for a bit. Not for a little. But ask for a double portion!"

God wants us to ask. And when we do, we should expect to get it! As Jesus Himself said, "Therefore, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you will receive and it will be yours."

Here's a key principle we need to understand form the book "How to live a Life of Miracles": God wants to bless others through us, but He has to bless us first.

"Your name is already written on every blessing designated for your life"

Bye Zubiri!

Zubiri: Koko Pimentel & I are victims here - I'm a victim because I did not finish my term, he's a victim because he did not start his term.

WRONG! A fake senator courtesy of a fake first gentleman can never be a victim.

"Migz knew all along there was cheating. How could he believe in good faith that 98% voted in Maguindanao and all 98% voted for him? Not one did not vote for him and the votes of 98% were valid. Not one was stray or otherwise invalid. Is that statistically probable? He was not able to get a 100% vote in his own town in Bukidnon, how much more in Maguindanao?"

Migz did not resigned. He made a graceful exit to save face.

Life's Little Instructions

Regardless of the situation, remember that nothing is ever lost by courtesy.

You should never allow anyone to intimidate you.

It’s better to be cheated in price than in quality.

You should never hesitate to do what you know is right.

Success is based on your service to others, not at the expense of others.

We should remember the credo of Walt Disney: THINK. BELIEVE. DREAM. DARE.

Never criticize your country when traveling abroad.

Never ignore an old barking dog.

Look for the opportunity that’s hidden in every adversary.

Ask permission before taking someone’s photograph.

Never underestimate someone with disability.

Seek respect rather popularity.

Seek refinement rather than fashion.

Never forget that it only takes one person or one idea to change your life forever.

Don’t be critical of your partner’s friends.

Respect your elders.

On your birthday, send your mom a thank you card.

Hold yourself the same high standards that you require of others.

Offer hope.

Remember that a lasting marriage is built on commitment, not convenience.

Never tell a salesman how much you want to spend.

Don’t forget that a couple of words of praise or encouragement can make someone’s day.

Remember that cruel words deeply hurt.

Plant a tree the day your child is born.

If it’s not a beautiful morning, let your cheerfulness make it one.

Never give up on a dream just because of the length of time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.

Don’t write down anything you don’t want someone else to read.

Remember that life’s most treasured moments often come unannounced.

Ask an older person you respect to tell you his/her greatest regret.

Remember that anything worth doing is going to take longer than you think.

Criticize the behavior, not the person.

Never leave fun to find fun.

Rebuild a broken relationship.

After someone apologizes to you, don’t lecture them.

Be willing to accept a temporary inconvenience for a permanent improvement.

Never make fun of people who speak broken language. It means they know another language.

Never underestimate the influence of the people you have allowed into your life.

Life Lesson: The 21 Commandments

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, “I love you,” mean it.

FIVE. When you say, “I’m sorry,” look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don’t judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, “Why do you want to know?”

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say “bless you” when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R’s: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

I have learned that...

* God didn’t do it all in one day, what makes me think I can?

* No matter how thin you slice it, there will always be two sides.

* Most of the things I worry about never happens.

* You should always leave loved ones with loving words; it could be the last time you’ll see them.

* If you are in a relationship with someone who doesn’t believe in you, you should get out before you stop believing in yourself.

* It’s best to ask for whta you need from your loves ones and not assume that somehow they’ll just know.

* Old age is not a defeat but a victory; not a punishment but a privilege.

* All of the bad four letter words, DIET is the worst.

* No matter how old or experienced you are, you can always learn something from a child.

* An act of love, no matter how great or small, is always appreciated.

* No matter how beautiful your makeup is, it can’t hide the expression of a sad heart.

* No situation is so bad that losing your temper won’t make it worse.

* Most people don’t look for the truths in life; they only search for someone to agree with them.

* Although I can skip class without getting in trouble, there’s still the consequence at exam time.

* People can surprise you. Sometimes, the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

* The greatest test of friendship is to take a vacation together and still like each other when you return.

* A minute of extra thinking beforehand can save hours of worry later.

* All the advice and wisdom in the world cannot help you unless you apply it daily in your life.

* You are never too old to try something new.

* Life is both simple and complicated at the same time. the trick is finding simple truths that are contained in the complicated confusion.

* Good habits are just as hard to break as bad habits.

* The easiest way to find happiness is to stop complaining.

* You can sit and worry until you are physically ill, but worrying doesn’t change things –action does.

* You should keep an open mind, but don’t be so open minded that your brains fall out.

* Perspective is everything. To a worm, digging in the hard ground is more relaxing than going fishing.

* You should be thankful for what you have learned, no matter how much it cost you.

* When I’m angry, I have the right to be angry, but it doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

* Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to means they don’t love you with all they have.

* The best way to learn something is to teach it to someone else.

* It’s worth fighting for causes, but not for people.

* No matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.

* No matter how old I am, I want my mother when I am hurting.

* Whining doesn’t solve problems.

* You should stop asking people for what they cannot give you and be content with what they can give.

* Smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

* I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what to do about it.

* After being on a diet for 2 weeks, all I lose is 14 days.

* In this world, you don’t need a multitude of friends. All you really need is one who will stand by you through thick and thin.

* The greatest physician in the world is OPTIMISM.

* Everyone you meet deserves a smile.

* Love, not time, heals all wounds.

* People always underestimate one’s ability, but what they should never underestimate is the drive behind that ability.

* To ignore the facts doesn not mean to change the facts.

* I don’t have the right to complain about something if I had the power to change it and did not.

* Money does not buy class.

* If you wouldn’t write it down, you probably shouldn’t say it as well.

* The best way to succeed is to do small things well.

* The janitor is the most important person in the building.

* Just because two people argue means they don’t love each other, and just because they don’t argue means they do.

* Being quiet doesn’t necessarily mean you have nothing to say.

* Deciding whom you marry is the most important decision you’ll ever make.

* Every great achievement was once considered impossible.

* The great challenge of life is to decide what’s important and to disregard everything else.

* You shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.

* The more creative you are, the more things you notice.

* You should never be too busy to say “please” and “thank you”.

* You can’t be a hero without taking chances.

* Nothing of value comes without effort.

* Even when I have pains, I don’t have to be a pain.

* You cannot expect others to solve your problems.

* Animals can sometimes warm your heart better than people can.

* You should never go to bed with an argument settled.

* You should always take time to answer children when they ask “why?”

* More comfort doesn’t necessarily mean more happiness.

* The worst pain is to see someone else in pain.

* There’s no substitute for good manners.

* It’s best not to quit at quitting time.

* People are as happy as they decide to be.

* If your life is full of failures, you’re probably not taking enough risks.

* There are 4 ages of men: 1) when he believes in Santa Claus 2) when he stops believing in Santa Claus 3) when He is Santa Claus and 4) when he looks like Santa Claus.

* “Today’s Featured Items” is a euphemism for “things we need to get rid of.”

* Being a success in the office is not worth it if it means being a failure at home.

* The simple things are often the most satisfying.

* If I don’t try new things, I won’t learn new things.

* Good health is true wealth.

* You can keep going long after you think you can’t.

* Success stops when I do.

* People treat me the way I allow them to treat me.

* When someone hurts your feelings, it’s unimportant unless you persist on remembering it.

* My greatest fear is that in the later years, I’ll look back at a long list of things “I never got to do”.

* If I don’t know the answer, it’s best to say “I don’t know.”

* You can’t expect your children to listen to your advice and ignore your example.

* Honesty in little things is not a little thing.

* There is something more painful than hate: indifference

* Indifference, and not hate, is the opposite of love.

* We are responsible for whatever we do, no matter how we feel.

* You must fight for the things you believe in.

* Age is only important if you are cheese.

* When bad things happen to me, I must keep the lesson but throw away the experience.

* If there were no problems, there would be no opportunities.

* Everything sounds romantic in a foreign language, no matter what is said. (except the chinese language hahahaha -ed)

* Making a living is not the same as making a life.

* you can’t please some people — no matter what you do.

* The two happiest days of my life were the day I bought my boat, and the day I sold my boat.

* If you wait until all conditions are perfect before you act, you’ll never act.

* You can either control your attitude, or it controls you.

* Success is more often the result of hard work than of talent.

* The greatest risk is in thinking too small.

* You should fill your life with experiences, not excuses.

* You can have a fancy education and still not be wise.

* When you’ve been angry at someone a long time, it’s easier to stay mad than to make up.

* If you allow someone to make you mad, you have let him/her conquer you.

* You shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands. you need to be able to throw something back.

* There are people who will life for you and will lie to you.

* The best tranquilizer is a good conscience.

* We should be generous with praise, but cautious with promises.

* The faults I have now are exactly the ones my parents tried to correct when I was a child.

* To get the right answer, you have to ask the right question.

* It’s never too late to improve yourself.

* It takes much energy and time to wish as it does to plan.

* We grow only when we push ourselves beyond what we already know.

* When things get easy, it’s easy to stop growing.

* People can change, so give them the benefit of the doubt.

* You can inherit wealth but never wisdom.

* It’s never too late to heal an injured relationship.

* 90% of the things that happen to me are good and only 10% are bad, i just have to focus on the 90%.

* It’s not what happens to people that are important, but what they do about it.

* The best way to appreciate something is to be without it for a while.

* You shouldn’t do anything that wouldn’t make your mother proud.

* If you won’t let your daughter date him, you shouldn’t.

* The only time you’re guaranteed not to get something you want is when you don’t try for it.

* It takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.

* When a father takes a son fishing, the least important thing to either one is whether they catch any fish.

* The biggest regrets in life are the risks you didn’t take.

* Some folks are like the bottom of a fraction, the bigger they try to be, the smaller they really are.

* You have to reach for the stars; they’re not just going to land on your front porch.

* No matter how many tears and sleepless nights you’ve experienced, if you can walk away from a relationship cherishing more than you regret, it is not a waste of time.

* Change is a challenge for the courageous, an opportunity for the alert, and a threat to the insecure.

* If you don’t expect a thank you, giving is easy.

* You can miss a lot of good things in life by having the wrong attitude.

* Two people can look at the same exact thing and see something totally different.

* There are only two classes: first class and no class.

* There should be an 11th commandment: thou shall not whine.

* To save yourself from the price of a face-life, smile a lot.

* By the time I can afford it, i don’t want it anymore.

* Children stop being their children, but you never stop being their mother.

* Wisdom is not how much you know but how you use what you know.

* Maturity does not come with age.

* A best friend is someone who loves you when you forget to love yourself.

* Sometimes, the things that scare you the most turns out to be the best times of your life.

* It’s just important to be friendly to the janitor as it is to be friendly to the company president.

* It’s the teacher, not the subject that makes class interesting.

* It’s easy to be critical about something you’ve never experienced.

Humility

Just wanna share what our priest said in his homily yesterday..

Fr. Dave: "Naniniwala ba kayo na kaya patuloy na naghihirap ang Pilipinas ay dahil sa salitang 'selfishness'? Meron ako nakausap nung isang araw at nabanggit nya sakin na 50 rich families lamang ang nagpapatakbo ng ekonomiya ng Pilipinas. At kung itong 50 mayayaman na pamilya ay magtitipon-tipon, magkakasundo at ibabahagi ang kahit kaunting porsyento ng kanilang yaman sa ating bansa, masosolusyunan natin ang paghihirap na nararanasan natin ngayon."

May point si Father dun! Para sakin, tama sya! Hindi naman nangangailangan na sobrang mayaman ka para makatulong sa nangangailangan. Kahit sa kaunting halaga, makakatulong tayo. Sa bansa natin ngayon, kung saan ang mayaman ay lalong yumayaman at ang mahirap ay lalong naghihirap, isang napakalaking hamon ito. Marami marahil ang magtataas ng kilay sa sinabi ni Father. Baka yung iba isipin na kaya sila yumaman kasi pinaghirapan nila yun at kung naging mahirap ang iba, problema nila yun na hindi sila nagsumikap na umahon sa kanilang buhay. Kung ganito ang magiging pag-iisip natin, hindi talaga tayo uunlad. Sana matuto tayo na kung anong meron, ibahagi natin sa iba. Kung ano man ang mayroon tayo, bigay satin ito ng Maykapal at wala tayong karapatan ipagmalaki at ipagdamot ito sa iba.

Sinabi ni Father sa huli ng kanyang pagbibigay ng homily, "Where there is selfishness, miracles won't happen. Where there is kindness in heart & generosity, everything is possible. Where there are true disciples of Christ, the Master is present. And when the Master is present, miracles are bound to happen."

Sometimes, miracles don't happen in us because maybe God wants us to be a miracle in someone's life. :)

At the end of our life, we shall all be judged by charity. -- St. John of the Cross

Day 206/365

Seeing old couples walk hand in hand never fails to give me the warm fuzzies. They give us hope that lasting relationships do exist.

Ang Modernong Pulubi. Bow!

Naranasan nyo na ba makasalubong ng pulubi tapos mamamalimos sa inyo at binigyan nyo ng barya? Pagkatapos mong bigyan ng barya, may maririnig ka pang "Pwedeng dagdagan?" o kaya "Kuripot naman, piso lang?" Aba choosy na sila ngayon. Kumbaga sa jeep meron na silang minimun fare! Nakakaloka! Kung ang gas nga daw araw-araw kung magtaas sila pa daw ba!

Noon, nahahabag ako pag meron akong nakikitang mga pulubing namamalimos sa mga kalsada o lansangan, sa mga paradahan ng sasakyan at sa iba't ibang lugar na maaaring maging lugar ng palimusan. Nakakalungkot na isipin na naging biktima sila ng magulong lipunan at mga tao. Ang iba sa kanila'y iniwan ng magulang, itinakwil, ipinamigay at inalisan ng karapatan na mamuhay ng may kumpletong pamilya. Marami sa kanila ang di na nakapag-aral, nakapag-asawa sa murang edad at bumuo ng pamlya sa lansangan at marami sa kanila ang nagkaron ng bisyo makatakas lang kahit panandalian sa mga kalupitang dulot ng lipunan.

Hindi ko alam kung maaawa pa ba ko sa mga pulubing nanlilimos o maiinis. Mayroon akong karanasan noon, pagbaba ko ng MRT mayroong batang lumapit sakin at humihingi ng limos eh nagkataon pagbukas ko ng bag mayroon pa pala kong biscuit kaya yun na lang ang inabot ko sa kanya kesa pera baka sa iba nya gastusin. Nagulat ako sa sinagot ng bata, "Ate, ayoko ng biscuit. Gusto ko P5!". Imbis na magpasalamat ang musmos eh nagawa pang magrequest. At mayroon din isang eksena na P2 ang naiabot ko sa bata at ang banat nya sakin eh, "Dagdagan mo Ate, P5 na lang!". Limang-piso na ba ang minimum rate ng mga pulubing nanlilimos ngayon? Nakakaloka! May iba naman na ang lakas ng katawan, pero manlilimos lang kaya nasasabihan sila ng iba na maghanap ng trabaho kaysa umasa sa limos kasi hindi naman sila baldado baka tinatamad lang o wala lang talagang diskarte sa buhay. May ibang bitbit ang anak habang nanlilimos para mas mahabag ang tao sa kanila. Nakakalungkot tingnan ang mga ganitong eksena sa kalsada. Pero nakakainis naman yung ibang bata na binigyan mo ng limos tapos makikita mo lang sumisinghot ng rugby. Yung iba abot-langit ang daing sa buhay dahil hindi alam saan kukuha ng pantustos, nagagawa pang mag-anak ng mag-anak. Ikaw na yung tumtutulong pero may ibang hindi naman ito ginagamit sa tama. May mga pulubing may gana pang magreklamo sa halagang ibinibigay sa kanila.

Naitanong ko sa aking sarili, tama ba na bigyan ko sila? Tama ba na kaawaan sila? Tama ba na mamili pa sila ng ibibigay ng mga tao? Tama ba na sa bisyo nila gastusin ang perang kanilang nilimos? Kung sa bagay, may kanya-kanya tayong pinaghuhugutang problema sa buhay. Mas naging malupit lamang sa kanila ang lipunan o maaring resulta ito ng kanilang personal na choice sa buhay. Sabi nga sa 100 days to Heaven, "Kung ano ang nangyayari sa tao, resulta ito ng kanilang choice." Sa sistema ng gobyerno natin kung saan ang mayayaman ay lalong yumayaman at ang mahihirap ay lalong humihirap, siguradong mas malala at malupit ang nararanasan nilang paghihirap kaysa sa atin. Ilang mamamalimos pa ba ang isisilang sa mundo? Napakasaklap isipin na sa kabila ng buhay na ibinigay sa kanila ay ang pagdanas ng karumal-dumal na paghihirap at pasakit pero sino ba naman tayo para magreklamo, ang mahalaga ay nasilayan natin ang mundong ipinagkaloob ng Diyos at naniniwala ako na kung ano man ang sapitin ng bawat nilalang ay may dahilan. Maaaring hindi natin gusto ngunit kailangan nating tanggapin.

Ligo na U Lapit na Me

Anak ng Bakang Bakla!

Hindi ko aakalain mahuhuli ni Eros Atalia ang kiliti ko sa pagbabasa. May pagkakahawig sila ni Bob Ong na peyborit ko! Makwela, di magalang pero hindi nagsisinungaling. Maihahalintulad ang kanilang mga libro sa mga kending nabibili sa kalsada-mura, accessible at readable. Yung mga idyoma na ginamit ay makulay at makahulugan. Ang mga salita ay payak, pangkaraniwan, bastos pero di masagwa, nakakatuwa, makulit. Yung tipong hindi mo na kailangan pumunta ng National Library para i-research kung ano kahulugan ng salitang ginamit! Marami na kong nabasa na blog reviews tungkol sa libro nya na "Ligo na U Lapit na Me" tapos nung nalaman ko pang ginawa na itong pelikula lalo akong nacurious kaya naisipan kong bumili. Sa pagka-atat ko mabasa, nagpunta ko noon sa NBS at Powerbooks sa Shang kaya lang parehong walang stocks noon at sa malapit na bookstore samin, wala din. Napaisip ako, "Aba, mabenta ha. Puro out of stocks! Mukang maganda nga!" At kahapon lang sya napasa-kamay ko! Sa sobrang atat kong mabasa, habang naglalakad papuntang MRT gang pagbaba ko ng jeep sa kanto malapit samin ay hindi ko pa din mapigilan magbasa sa sabrang pagkaaliw ko dito. Kahit sa panonood ng TV kagabi sinasabayan ko ng pagsilip sa mga pahina ng libro, habang kumakain basa pa din at di ko na namalayan ang oras mag-aalas dose na kaya pinagpaliban ko na para ngayon. At tendenenen! "Tapos ko na!". Hindi ako nanghinayang sa P200 na ginastos ko sa librong ito!

Ang sabi sa back cover ng librong ito, “ Paano mo malalaman kung hindi ka magtatanong? Pero andami-dami nating nalalaman kahit hindi tayo nagtatanong. Paano ka pa magtatanong kung alam mo na ang sagot? Pero paano ka magtatanong kung hindi mo alam kung ano ang iyong itatanong? Paano mo sasagutin ang tanong sa iyo kung hindi mo alam ang isasagot? Paano ka sasagot kung hindi mo alam ang itatanong? (Kunsabagay sa buhay na ito, madalas tama ang sagot, mali nga lang ang tanong.)

At sa ending, bitin ako. Bitin na bitin! Para akong nanood ng sine na abangan ang Part 2. Ang dami ko tuloy naging tanong din! Ang dami dami kong tanong lalo na tungkol kay Intoy. Nakahanap na kaya siya ng trabaho? Nakalimutan na ba niya si Jen? Nakausap na ba niya si Jen? Hinanap pa ba ng mga kaklase nila si Jen sa kanya? Active na rin ba siya sa Praise the Lord ng mga magulang niya? Gaano naman kaya ang itinaba niya simula ng maging bum siya? Madalas na ba niyang maka-usap si Benson (John Lennon) sa labasan ng bahay nila? Ano naman kaya ang iba pa niyang pananaw sa ekonomiya ng Pilipinas sa punto ng nakatira sa isang Third World na subdivision? At, bakit kailangang bitinin pa ako ni Intoy sa dulo?

Nagustuhan ko ang akdang ito ni Eros Atalia dahil (para sa kin) umiikot ang tema nito sa kahalagahan ng pagsasabi ng pagmamahal sa isang tao, pag-iingat sa friends with benefits and perks (hanggang dun lang, bawal mainlove) at ang kahalagahan ng pagkakaroon ng closure sa isang relasyon, anumang label nito. (At kung makapabigay ako ng review tungkol sa librong ito ay akala mong na-inlab na ang 'cornyvorous' na tulad ko! LOL!)

Ang galing ni Sir Eros Atalia kasi nadala niya ako sa ibang mundo. Ang galing ng utak nya! Napakahusay parang nakikipag-usap yung libro! Mapapasagot ka sa mga tanong nya dito at mapapatango sa mga ideya nya! Panalo ang librong ito dahil hindi ito natakot gumamit ng mga barubal na salita pero kung tutumbukin mo ay may laman!

Aabangan ko ang kasunod na kabanta nito! Peksman!

Bili na U! Dali! :) Kwentuhan Us! :)

Sadness strikes!

Shocks! Minsan lang ako tamaan ng sobrang lungkot kasi madalas naman pag dumarating yan sa buhay ko pinipilit ko mag-isip ng mga nakakatuwa. I always try my best to not entertain that thought. Pero ewan ko sa araw na 'to kung bakit ganito ako. Siguro dahil sa panahon; mahangin kasi sa labas at kulimlim. Waaaaahhhh ayoko ng ganito! Usually pag tinatamaan ako ng ganito, nag-oopen lang ako FB, twitter, tumblr or nagbabasa ng ibang blog. Pero lahat yun nagawa ko na ngayon pero ang lungkot ko pa din! Epekto ba to ng walang lovelife??? Tae! Marahil. Malamang. Baka. Siguro! Hay Ewan!!!! Gusto ko na mag-uwian! :)

I claim it!

I love this passage from the Bible that says, " Whatever it is the you pray with faith, you will received"

Thank you Lord, for all the blessings you shower me whether it is big or small, my gratitude is overflowing!

Lord, you know what's going on my mind and what's my desires in my heart. I know you listen. You know what's my feelings before I say it out to you. And I trust you. I offer you my life. I know your plans are greater than mine. Whatever it is that you planned for me, may I accept it with my whole heart and mind and soul. Thank you for the patience. I know in your perfect time, everything will be going well in my life. I claim it and I know you will give it to me.

Always teach me to be generous, to be humble and to be faithful! :)

I want to ask for forgiveness for everything that I've done wrong. I am not perfect. But thank you for giving me a strong conscience and wisdom. Continue to guide and bless me together my family and friends and all of the people. :)

I LOVE YOU LORD BIGTIME. I WILL FOREVER TRUST YOU! :)

Ang iPod at ako!

Hindi ako magaling kumanta, hindi ko rin pwedeng sabihing marunong ako. Oo, adik ako sa music at mamamatay ako pag wala akong dalang iPod pag lalabas ako ng bahay. Minsan kahit wala akong earphone feeling ko meron! Nagagalit na nga Nanay ko, minsan kasi dada sya ng dada di ko naman naririnig. LOL! :) Bingi na nga yata ko kasi pag nakikinig ako Volumes Up to the Max! hahaha..

Mahilig ako sa lumang kanta. May ibang kanta na sumikat noong panahon pa ng 70' and 80's pero hindi ibig sabihin eh naabutan ko nung sumikat ang mga kantang ito. Masarap lang pakinggan yung luma. Kalmado lang. Steady kumbaga! Chill lang! Iba ang lumang music, may mararamdaman kang passion sa kumakanta, may hugot sa puso, at may pagbibigay halaga sa salitang damdamin. Siguro dahil kokontii lang ang singers dati kaya magagaling sila. Ngayon kasi kahit "Boses Plemahin" basta sikat gagawan ng album. Susmaryosep!

Rock, Alternative at Punk. nagulat ba kayo? Pero totoo, mahilig din ako sa ganitong klaseng music. Hindi naman kasi ko minsan nagjajudge ng kanta base sa beat, sa ganda ng melody pero dahil gusto ko yung lyrics at meaning nung kanta.

Lovesongs. Minsan feel na feel ko makinig kahit yung sinasabi nung kanta eh di ko pa naranasan. Masarap lang makinig minsan para feel mo na din nain-love ka o inlove ka! Once in a while masarap kiligin! chos! Music is my boyfriend ang drama rama!

Christian songs. Eto hindi ko na mabilang ang nagtanong sakin ng , "Born Again ka teh?" tuwing pineplay ko o nakikinig ako sa Hillsongs United. I'm Catholic! Masarap lang talaga pakinggan kanta nila. Nakakainspire! Nakaka-goodvibes! Try nyo! Matutuwa si Papa God! :)

Pop. RNB. Hiphop. peyborit ko mga genre na toh! Nakakaboost ng energy. Nakakarelax. Kahit minsan di maganda ung lyrics pero maganda yung beat/melody pak na!

OPM. still OPM rocks! Tangkilikin ang sariling atin. Pero minsan nakakalungkot lang kasi madami ngayon artists gumagawa na lang ng revivals o cover ng ibang artists. Sana madami pa yung gumawa ng originals. Magaling ang mga Pinoy. We are all musically inclined. Kumbaga na sa atin dugo na yung love for music. KAhit anong emosyon, kahit anong sitwasyon meron kanta dyan ang Pinoy!

Weird man ang choice of music ko, or masyado mang malawak ang trip kung music sa buhay. Isa lang ang mahalaga para sa akin, ang music ay parang "Vitamins" ng buhay. Hindi ibig sabihing pag malungkot ang kanta ay malungkot din ang mood mo, minsan may mga mahahalagang mga pangyayari sa buhay natin ang ating naaalala dahil sa mga kanta. Hindi dahil sa mensahe ng kanta mismo, pero dahil eto ang kanta ng nangyari ito, o eto ang kanta sa FX/jeep na sinasakyan mo papuntang MRT, habang katabi mo ang kras mo.

Kahit minsan, hindi tayo iniwan ng musika, andiyan sila sa bawat gabing unan lang ang kasama, sa gabing sumisigaw ka sa buong mundo na masaya ka, andiyan siya sa bawat pagkikita ng magkaka-ibigan, sa lahat ng reunion, sa lahat ng family gathering at kahit sa mismong Kasal o sa Kamatayan. Sa bawat mahalagang parte ng buhay mo.

Baket????

Bakit sa panahon ngayon ang internet ay isa ng necessity sa buhay na pag nawala parang sobrang kulang na ang araw.. Ako, aminado ako na daily routine ko na sya.. Kumbaga nakalista na sya sa Activities of Daily Living ko.. Pag hindi ako nakapaglog-in sa Facebook at Tumblr in a day, hindi ako mapakali.. Parang kulang lagi.. Saka pag ngayon, pag minsan may pumasok sa isip ko at gusto kong sabihin hindi ko maiwasan i-post toh dito sa Tumblr or sa FB.. Masaya pero minsan napapaisip ako bakit parang magnet sya na pilit kang hinihila.. Ilang beses ko na sinabi I will abstain on using internet pero bigo ako.. Kasi sa work ko pag wala ako magawa haharap lang ako sa computer at magiinternet na.. Pampalipas oras na! At boom! Tumblr at FB lagi ang una kong inoopen. Baket???? And I don’t know why! LOL!

Kahapon pinost ko yung video about Social Networking Etiquette! Guilty ako dun kasi ung iba dun ginagawa ko pero may ilang tao na sumusobra naman.. At lahat ng sobra ay masama.. Tama na yung nagpost ka ng pictures sa album sa FB.. Pero wag naman ung ipopost mo pa ulit ito isa-isa via share.. Hayaan mo na lang buksan ung album mo ng gustong tumingin. Tama na ung nagpost ka dito sa tumblr pero wag mo na iconnect sa FB.. kasi pinost mo na dito ipopost mo pa sa FB.. tapos ung pinost mo sa twitter nakakonek din sa FB.. nagflaflood ka na! At minsan sabay2 mo silang gamit lahat! pagbigyan mo naman ung ibang post ng iba na makita! Kung may galit ka dun mo ipost sa wall ng kaaway mo wag sa Newsfeed! Kasi wala kaming pakialam sa kaaway mo.. Kayong dalawa ang mag-usap! Meron din naman, sila na nagpost sila din maglalike sila din nagcocomment sa post nila. Paulit-ulit teh??? Saka nakakainis nga yung pabago-bago ng relationship status.. Ngayon in a relationship after 30 mins single after 30 mins it's complicated!!! Papansin teh???

Pero we have our freedom of speech.. Di natin maiiwasan o mapipigilan kung ano man gustong ilagay, sabihin at ipakita ng ibang tao. Ang sakin lang let’s know our limitation.. :) Minsan kasi baka tayo lang ang natutuwa pero ung mga nakakakita at nakakabasa pala hindi.. Ilagay din natin sa lugar.

Ang sa akin lang… Chos!