Singleness :)

I am single.

And for years now, it has been a BIG question to my friends and families. Yeah. I'm quite used to hearing questions like "Why are you still single?" or "Bakit nga ba wala ka pang bf? Pihikan ka siguro." Actually, me being single or me having zero love life became a sort of.. a JOKE. Yes. It was like a punchline among my friends and families. Weird but hindi ako napipikon. I don't get mad or something. I think I'm used to it. Haha. My usual reaction was to laugh about it too. Why would I get mad, it's true naman e. But then, truth really hurts! Haha:))

Seriously, I'm scared. Really. I don't know if I can take the pain if ever. Because I know that it's not all about happiness.. I know there'd be a momentary break from happiness and that is Pain.

Pride. I think that what's holding me back too. It's like, I'm not used to crying over some guy, obeying whatever he wants. Yung ganung feeling. Fudge. This is the effect of my world revolving around my friends and families. For me, I'm okay as long as they are there..in my world..in my Life. But then at some point, you'll feel incomplete. I mean, with all your friends being in a relationship and sharing their experiences while you are just there to listen and ask..sucks you know. I want to experience na din the kiligness, the sleepless nights having conversations with him, travelling places together with that special person! awwwww... the hopeless romantic in me is coming out again!

I have so much care and sweetness to offer. I have so much Love to give. Pero wala pang mapagbigyan :)) what the fudge!!!! Haha:)) hey Cupid, tamain mo na sya pleassssse! hahahaha..

I guess, I'm just afraid to turn my safety off. I'm afraid to put my guard down. Or I'm just not ready. And maybe, the person who would make me turn my safety off and put my guard down hasn't arrived yet.

I know someday, I'll push the 'off' button...for someone.. willingly. When that day comes, mark your calendars! haha. :))

PS: Being single is actually GREAT if you have Friends and Families like mine.ü

I know He's just there. Time will come it will permit us to meet! looking forward for that BIG DAY! haha.. :D