I just feel Blessed. I feel blessed because of my family and my friends. My career might not be that superb right now but then it won't stop me from feeling happy and thankful.
I have a very supportive family. Not perfect, not even close to perfection. But just real to care, support and love me. I'd always be thankful for them. And believe it or not, I'd still want them for a family in my next life.
Friends. I am proud to say that God showered me with true friends. I don't have tons of friends. They may be few but they are absolutely real and true! They're my moral supporters too. They are the ones who reminds me how beautiful I am when I'm forgetting to love myself.
As what I've said earlier, my career is not that admirably fine right now. But I can still say and proud to shout out to the world that I AM RICH... And that's because of my Family and true Friends.
My treasures.
My priceless possessions.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Singleness :)
I am single.
And for years now, it has been a BIG question to my friends and families. Yeah. I'm quite used to hearing questions like "Why are you still single?" or "Bakit nga ba wala ka pang bf? Pihikan ka siguro." Actually, me being single or me having zero love life became a sort of.. a JOKE. Yes. It was like a punchline among my friends and families. Weird but hindi ako napipikon. I don't get mad or something. I think I'm used to it. Haha. My usual reaction was to laugh about it too. Why would I get mad, it's true naman e. But then, truth really hurts! Haha:))
Seriously, I'm scared. Really. I don't know if I can take the pain if ever. Because I know that it's not all about happiness.. I know there'd be a momentary break from happiness and that is Pain.
Pride. I think that what's holding me back too. It's like, I'm not used to crying over some guy, obeying whatever he wants. Yung ganung feeling. Fudge. This is the effect of my world revolving around my friends and families. For me, I'm okay as long as they are there..in my world..in my Life. But then at some point, you'll feel incomplete. I mean, with all your friends being in a relationship and sharing their experiences while you are just there to listen and ask..sucks you know. I want to experience na din the kiligness, the sleepless nights having conversations with him, travelling places together with that special person! awwwww... the hopeless romantic in me is coming out again!
I have so much care and sweetness to offer. I have so much Love to give. Pero wala pang mapagbigyan :)) what the fudge!!!! Haha:)) hey Cupid, tamain mo na sya pleassssse! hahahaha..
I guess, I'm just afraid to turn my safety off. I'm afraid to put my guard down. Or I'm just not ready. And maybe, the person who would make me turn my safety off and put my guard down hasn't arrived yet.
I know someday, I'll push the 'off' button...for someone.. willingly. When that day comes, mark your calendars! haha. :))
PS: Being single is actually GREAT if you have Friends and Families like mine.ΓΌ
I know He's just there. Time will come it will permit us to meet! looking forward for that BIG DAY! haha.. :D
I know He's just there. Time will come it will permit us to meet! looking forward for that BIG DAY! haha.. :D
mangarap ka ng bongga!
Libre lang daw mangarap kaya ako pinapakyaw ko na lahat! haha..
Marami akong pangarap sa buhay.. sana.. matupad na..
Oo. Marami akong pangarap. May maliit, may malaki, may short-term at may long-term at merong hanggang pangarap na lang talaga. Pero ang pinaka-pangarap ko sa lahat ay PANGARAP KONG MATUPAD LAHAT NG PANGARAP KO. Aysus!
Pangarap kong:
There's no harm in dreaming. Dream Big! Malay nyo matupad di ba? BIGTIME yun! :)
--- this blog is made out of boredom.. KILLING THE TIME!!!!
Marami akong pangarap sa buhay.. sana.. matupad na..
Oo. Marami akong pangarap. May maliit, may malaki, may short-term at may long-term at merong hanggang pangarap na lang talaga. Pero ang pinaka-pangarap ko sa lahat ay PANGARAP KONG MATUPAD LAHAT NG PANGARAP KO. Aysus!
Pangarap kong:
- Yumaman. (sino bang hinde? pero I'll share my blessings to everyone! :D)
- Lumipad. (ng walang pakpak. -kabaliwan :))
- Maging superhero at magkaron ng super power! (-isa ulit kabaliwan! :))
- Malibot ang buong Pilipinas.
- Makapunta sa Paris. Gusto ko magpapicture sa Eiffel Tower! Makapunta din sa Vatican para ma-meet si Pope!
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- Makasama maka-sayaw ang Jabbawockeez. :P
- Magkaron ng trabaho na kung saan alam kong mag-e-enjoy ako na I wouldn't feel na nagwowork ako. (cge, mangarap ka!)
- Matuto magdrums or mag-gitara.
- Magkaron ng art exhibit.
- I-try ang different sports. Extreme sports and water sports. (parang walang fear of heights!)
- Matutong mag-drive.
- Magka-kotse.
- Magkaroon ng napaka-gandang bahay yung may swimming pool! haha..
- Magkaron ng Franchsie ng Jollibee! haha.. :D
- Maging guest sa Ophrah show.
- Makapag charity works.
- Magkaron ng partner for life and kids in the future! :)
- Maging masaya always and forever! :)
There's no harm in dreaming. Dream Big! Malay nyo matupad di ba? BIGTIME yun! :)
--- this blog is made out of boredom.. KILLING THE TIME!!!!
Monday, September 13, 2010
God's Plan
God has a plan for me.
God has a plan for you.
God has a plan for every single person you love.
God has a plan for me, whether good or bad happens, it all works out for the best in the end.
Your life may take detours you don't want to happen, or detours that make you fearful, but it is only in time you will understand why your life had to take that detour.
Trust and believe.
Keep the faith.
Just be the best that you can be.. ♥
God has a plan for you.
God has a plan for every single person you love.
God has a plan for me, whether good or bad happens, it all works out for the best in the end.
Your life may take detours you don't want to happen, or detours that make you fearful, but it is only in time you will understand why your life had to take that detour.
Trust and believe.
Keep the faith.
Just be the best that you can be.. ♥
Monday, September 6, 2010
Finding the RIGHT ONE...
Somebody once told me that
"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong...
it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...
you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a
"right person" for you...
and don't rush things... '
coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."
You can never be perfect...
the person you love can never be perfect...
but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers,
and your love can be perfect through the both of you.
But, no relationship is complete without God...
that's why we have marriage...
it's a bond not only between you and your loved one...
but also with God.
Our relationships fail not because (s) he's not the right person...
it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own...
let God do the work...
you may call it waiting time...
but while you are waiting...pray.
Let God guide you always...He knows better..No, He knows best.
Love is not what you think it is...
sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last.
Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance,
we forget to learn the meaning of true love.
Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.
When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us.
We say this phrase
"You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received..."
After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say
"You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!"
Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E?
Are you really deeply into it?
Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears.
Most of the time, these love promises like
"Forever. Till Death do us apart, etc."
would end up
"Never"
and
"We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you!
My love for you is DEAD!!!"
Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree
"S/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come."
But the big question anyone could not answer is
"Is she/he the right one?"
and
"When is the right time?"
That made us stick to whom we are with.
Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit?
A big YES is the answer.
Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it.
Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt,
don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.
If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.
It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest.
Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention.
Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself.
More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life.
We misunderstood, it's just that we're too much dependent to them.
We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past.
We are mistaken, it's just insecurity.
But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg.
It is real and existing.
You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.
You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the happiest soul in heaven,
but don't forget
that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.
"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong...
it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...
you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a
"right person" for you...
and don't rush things... '
coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."
You can never be perfect...
the person you love can never be perfect...
but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers,
and your love can be perfect through the both of you.
But, no relationship is complete without God...
that's why we have marriage...
it's a bond not only between you and your loved one...
but also with God.
Our relationships fail not because (s) he's not the right person...
it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own...
let God do the work...
you may call it waiting time...
but while you are waiting...pray.
Let God guide you always...He knows better..No, He knows best.
Love is not what you think it is...
sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last.
Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance,
we forget to learn the meaning of true love.
Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.
When we think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us.
We say this phrase
"You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received..."
After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say
"You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!"
Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E?
Are you really deeply into it?
Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears.
Most of the time, these love promises like
"Forever. Till Death do us apart, etc."
would end up
"Never"
and
"We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you!
My love for you is DEAD!!!"
Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree
"S/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for the right one to come."
But the big question anyone could not answer is
"Is she/he the right one?"
and
"When is the right time?"
That made us stick to whom we are with.
Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit?
A big YES is the answer.
Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it.
Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt,
don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.
If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.
It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest.
Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention.
Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself.
More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life.
We misunderstood, it's just that we're too much dependent to them.
We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past.
We are mistaken, it's just insecurity.
But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg.
It is real and existing.
You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.
You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the happiest soul in heaven,
but don't forget
that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.
ANG BUHAY SINGLE
Bakit ba tuwing may "get2geder" ang mga tao,
mapa-family reunion man or simpleng barkada gimik,
ang unang tanong sayo ay :
"May boyfriend ka ba?"
at bago ka pa maka-sagot ay maririnig mo naman ang :
"Bakett walaaaaaa??!"
Hayyy, kelangan ba talagang may bitbit kang boylet sa mga occasions na ito?
Pano kung wala talaga?
Alanganamang maki-usap pa ako sa mga "close" guy friends ko para mag-panggap na "kami"?!
Di naman ata tama yun, dee-bah?
How I wish na sana mas maintindihan ng mga tao na sa mga panahon ngayon ay "accepted" na sa society na MEDYO made-delay ang pag-iisang dibdib ng mga kababaihan..
especially girls like me who want to get into so many things all at the same time.
I also wish that people would understand that OKAY LANG AKO
and the rest of THE SAMAHANG MALAMIG ANG PASKO...
Valentines day..
Birthday..etc.
I mean, we do get lonely once in a while..
naiingit din dun sa may mga LOVELIFE... paminsan-minsan?
kung minsan naman ay nagmumuni sa mga past kilig moments?
but these lonely moments do not and will not make our "world" stop...
Isipin nyo nalang,
na kung wala kaming mga single friends nyo,
eh di wala kayong paghihingaan ng sama ng loob tuwing nag-aaway kayo ng boylet or girlet nyo?
wala rin kayong "instant date" kung sakaling nangailangan kayo?...
wala rin kayong mahihila sa mall para maghanap ng magandang regalo for your better-half pag xmas... o kaya pag bday nya?
at ang pinaka-mahalaga sa lahat,
wala kayong KAKAMPI if things between you and your labidabs don't work out.
Marami naman sa aming mga singles ay nakaranas na rin na "ma-in-love"..
yun nga lang, obvious ba??????????
it all didn't work out!
Pero di naman kami "bitter" o galit sa mundo?
ang totoo nga nyan eh mas lumalalim ang kahulugan ng "love" para sa min.
When you're all by yourself,
there's more time to reflect and think what you really want it life.
Mas naiisip mo kung ano ba talaga ang makakapagbigay ng tunay na ligaya sayo...
at mas naiisip mo kung pano matutupad ang lahat ng mga pangarap mo.
And while reflecting,
We also get to imagine that we will,
One day....end up with someone who will share those dreams with us.
Di naman sa nang-iinggit ako pero masaya rin ang buhay naming mga single...
Biruin mo we can go out with anybody, anytime.. that is.
We can get into all kinds of things..
like go to the gym regularly..
or get into all kinds of sports...
or any "Self-enhancement" programs, etc...
Mejo tipid din ang buhay single
kasi la naman kaming po-problemahin tuwing Valentines day or Christmas o diba ang saya?
Sa palagay ko naman ay lahat tayo ay may karapatang sumaya ke single man o attached ka.
I guess may kanya-kanya lang tayong panahong lumigaya at Diyos lamang ang makapagsasabi... kung kelan nga dadating and oras na yon.
So, para sa mga kasalukuyang "ATTACHED",
I wish you all the luck and happiness.
Should there be any problems, don't forget that your SINGLE friends are always here for you!!!!!
Sa mga "bagong SINGLES" naman, wag nang magmukmok!
Enjoy life....enjoy the single life!!!
There are a lot of things that you will still discover.
At tandaan mo, DI KA NAG-IISA!!!
madami-dami tayo..hehehehe :)
At dun naman sa kapwa kong mga SINGLES?I
hope that we are one in believing that we long for someone
NOT BECAUSE WE WANT TO BE HAPPY but we long for someone
because we want to share our happiness with that special person for the rest
of our lives....
mapa-family reunion man or simpleng barkada gimik,
ang unang tanong sayo ay :
"May boyfriend ka ba?"
at bago ka pa maka-sagot ay maririnig mo naman ang :
"Bakett walaaaaaa??!"
Hayyy, kelangan ba talagang may bitbit kang boylet sa mga occasions na ito?
Pano kung wala talaga?
Alanganamang maki-usap pa ako sa mga "close" guy friends ko para mag-panggap na "kami"?!
Di naman ata tama yun, dee-bah?
How I wish na sana mas maintindihan ng mga tao na sa mga panahon ngayon ay "accepted" na sa society na MEDYO made-delay ang pag-iisang dibdib ng mga kababaihan..
especially girls like me who want to get into so many things all at the same time.
I also wish that people would understand that OKAY LANG AKO
and the rest of THE SAMAHANG MALAMIG ANG PASKO...
Valentines day..
Birthday..etc.
I mean, we do get lonely once in a while..
naiingit din dun sa may mga LOVELIFE... paminsan-minsan?
kung minsan naman ay nagmumuni sa mga past kilig moments?
but these lonely moments do not and will not make our "world" stop...
Isipin nyo nalang,
na kung wala kaming mga single friends nyo,
eh di wala kayong paghihingaan ng sama ng loob tuwing nag-aaway kayo ng boylet or girlet nyo?
wala rin kayong "instant date" kung sakaling nangailangan kayo?...
wala rin kayong mahihila sa mall para maghanap ng magandang regalo for your better-half pag xmas... o kaya pag bday nya?
at ang pinaka-mahalaga sa lahat,
wala kayong KAKAMPI if things between you and your labidabs don't work out.
Marami naman sa aming mga singles ay nakaranas na rin na "ma-in-love"..
yun nga lang, obvious ba??????????
it all didn't work out!
Pero di naman kami "bitter" o galit sa mundo?
ang totoo nga nyan eh mas lumalalim ang kahulugan ng "love" para sa min.
When you're all by yourself,
there's more time to reflect and think what you really want it life.
Mas naiisip mo kung ano ba talaga ang makakapagbigay ng tunay na ligaya sayo...
at mas naiisip mo kung pano matutupad ang lahat ng mga pangarap mo.
And while reflecting,
We also get to imagine that we will,
One day....end up with someone who will share those dreams with us.
Di naman sa nang-iinggit ako pero masaya rin ang buhay naming mga single...
Biruin mo we can go out with anybody, anytime.. that is.
We can get into all kinds of things..
like go to the gym regularly..
or get into all kinds of sports...
or any "Self-enhancement" programs, etc...
Mejo tipid din ang buhay single
kasi la naman kaming po-problemahin tuwing Valentines day or Christmas o diba ang saya?
Sa palagay ko naman ay lahat tayo ay may karapatang sumaya ke single man o attached ka.
I guess may kanya-kanya lang tayong panahong lumigaya at Diyos lamang ang makapagsasabi... kung kelan nga dadating and oras na yon.
So, para sa mga kasalukuyang "ATTACHED",
I wish you all the luck and happiness.
Should there be any problems, don't forget that your SINGLE friends are always here for you!!!!!
Sa mga "bagong SINGLES" naman, wag nang magmukmok!
Enjoy life....enjoy the single life!!!
There are a lot of things that you will still discover.
At tandaan mo, DI KA NAG-IISA!!!
madami-dami tayo..hehehehe :)
At dun naman sa kapwa kong mga SINGLES?I
hope that we are one in believing that we long for someone
NOT BECAUSE WE WANT TO BE HAPPY but we long for someone
because we want to share our happiness with that special person for the rest
of our lives....
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Sa'Yo Lamang
Last night, I've finally watched the movie "Sa'yo Lamang" together with my mother. Honestly when I first saw the movie trailer weeks ago, I really told myself I have to watch it! Sa trailer pa lang kasi, I was moved already with some of the scenes. It is somehow similar to the story of my family.
The movie begins with the return of their estranged father, Franco (Christopher de Leon) who after ten long years decided to show up, of all occasions, at the housewarming of the family he left behind, hoping for forgiveness. Though his wife Amanda (Lorna Tolentino) seems willing to give him a chance, his children aren't as ready to welcome him back. Eldest daughter Dianne (Bea Alonzo) resents him for leaving her to take care of the family. Son Coby (Coco Martin) has grown to be a failure in a twisted attempt to be closer to his father. The two youngest James and Lisa (Enchong Dee and Miles Ocampo) barely know who he is. Through all of this, each of the members of his family go through their own personal trials, pushing them even further apart.
Most of the scenes in the movie is like a flashback to me of what our family went through. I have also a father whose dream is just to give his family a better life, decided to work abroad and it took him 18 long years before he came back. I was only like 3 years old when he left us, my eldest brother was 4 and my little brother was only 9 months old that time. Sobrang natouched ako dun sa lines ni Enchong Dee nung sinabi nya sa Tatay nya na "Pinilit kong hindi mag-isip ng masama nung nawala kayo. Pero ang hirap hirap pa lang lumaking walang Tatay". Akong-ako yun eh! It's really hard to grow up without a father. Syempre every child wants to have a complete family. Pero God tested our family. Everything happens for a reason!
Napicture ko yung eksena din namin nung bumalik yung daddy ko after 18 years. Lumaki lang ako na mga litrato at boses lang nya sa phone yung pinaghahawakan ko na meron akong Tatay. I don't know how to explain the feeling the very first moment I saw him. Hindi ko alam kung masaya, malungkot, galit o inis ako nun. "Bakit? Bakit after 18 years ka bumalik?" yun ang tumatakbong tanong sa isip ko nun. Syempre sa simula casual lang. Nasabi ko pa nga nun na "Wow, tunay ka pala daddy akala ko alamat ka lang eh". Thankful ako na pinalaki kami ng Mommy ko na wag magtanim ng galit. Kaya pinakisamahan namin sya despite of what had happened kasi kahit anong mangyari, Tatay pa din naman namin sya eh. Masakit lang tanggapin na after 18 years, akala mo you can start all over again pero may mas malaking problema pala. My father had an affair while he's abroad. Masakit samin mga anak yun eh what more pa kaya sa part ng Nanay namin. She'd done everything for us. She raised us. She worked hard. She'd been faithful after long years and then she will found out that her husband had an affair with another woman. Ang sakit! Ang sakit sakit nun! Pero 18 years kasi yung lumipas eh, sobrang tagal talaga! Sabi nga ng Tatay ko nadala daw sya ng panahon. Nung una kong narinig yun, nainis ako. Anong dahilan yun? Dahil sa tinagal nyo magkalayo, naghanap ka ng iba. Eh pano kung Nanay namin naghanap din? Anong mararamdaman kaya nya! Sakit sa tenga nung dahilan nya! Pero ewan ko kahit anong galit gusto kong ilabas nun, hindi ko malabas. Kasi naaawa din kasi ko sa kanya. Ito na lang chance nya na mapadama samin na Tatay namin sya, kaya why not give him another chance. And after all, I am not here if not because of him. Malamang mahirap din yung pinagdaanan nya sa buhay.
Pero mahirap magbigay ng second chance sa taong walang effort na gumawa para mapatunayan na deserve nya yun. I don't know how to label the status of my family right now. Definitely, we're complete physically pero mahirap kasi alam mong may problema. Hindi mo alam pano maayos kasi yung taong dapat mag-ayos nun walang ginagawa. Kaya I think we're complicated! ahahaha. I don't know where my family's story will go. I'll just let God continue to write His story for us. I still believe in happy endings.. haha.. :) I have forgiven my Dad. I'll just pray na sana he'll find the right path. Alam ko gulong-gulo pa sya ngayon pero sana in time makapili na din sya. I still believe everything will be alright if not right now, eventually. We all make mistakes. From those mistakes, we learned.
I super love this movie. This was indeed the best family oriented Filipino movie I've ever seen so far. Good job Star Cinema! You've met your goal! Nakarelate ako ng bonggang-bongga. Nakita ko sarili ko hindi lang sa isa pero sa halos lahat ng characters sa movie.
If you're looking for a movie to lift your spirit and give you inspiration, "Sa'yo Lamang" will not disapoint you!
The movie begins with the return of their estranged father, Franco (Christopher de Leon) who after ten long years decided to show up, of all occasions, at the housewarming of the family he left behind, hoping for forgiveness. Though his wife Amanda (Lorna Tolentino) seems willing to give him a chance, his children aren't as ready to welcome him back. Eldest daughter Dianne (Bea Alonzo) resents him for leaving her to take care of the family. Son Coby (Coco Martin) has grown to be a failure in a twisted attempt to be closer to his father. The two youngest James and Lisa (Enchong Dee and Miles Ocampo) barely know who he is. Through all of this, each of the members of his family go through their own personal trials, pushing them even further apart.
Most of the scenes in the movie is like a flashback to me of what our family went through. I have also a father whose dream is just to give his family a better life, decided to work abroad and it took him 18 long years before he came back. I was only like 3 years old when he left us, my eldest brother was 4 and my little brother was only 9 months old that time. Sobrang natouched ako dun sa lines ni Enchong Dee nung sinabi nya sa Tatay nya na "Pinilit kong hindi mag-isip ng masama nung nawala kayo. Pero ang hirap hirap pa lang lumaking walang Tatay". Akong-ako yun eh! It's really hard to grow up without a father. Syempre every child wants to have a complete family. Pero God tested our family. Everything happens for a reason!
Napicture ko yung eksena din namin nung bumalik yung daddy ko after 18 years. Lumaki lang ako na mga litrato at boses lang nya sa phone yung pinaghahawakan ko na meron akong Tatay. I don't know how to explain the feeling the very first moment I saw him. Hindi ko alam kung masaya, malungkot, galit o inis ako nun. "Bakit? Bakit after 18 years ka bumalik?" yun ang tumatakbong tanong sa isip ko nun. Syempre sa simula casual lang. Nasabi ko pa nga nun na "Wow, tunay ka pala daddy akala ko alamat ka lang eh". Thankful ako na pinalaki kami ng Mommy ko na wag magtanim ng galit. Kaya pinakisamahan namin sya despite of what had happened kasi kahit anong mangyari, Tatay pa din naman namin sya eh. Masakit lang tanggapin na after 18 years, akala mo you can start all over again pero may mas malaking problema pala. My father had an affair while he's abroad. Masakit samin mga anak yun eh what more pa kaya sa part ng Nanay namin. She'd done everything for us. She raised us. She worked hard. She'd been faithful after long years and then she will found out that her husband had an affair with another woman. Ang sakit! Ang sakit sakit nun! Pero 18 years kasi yung lumipas eh, sobrang tagal talaga! Sabi nga ng Tatay ko nadala daw sya ng panahon. Nung una kong narinig yun, nainis ako. Anong dahilan yun? Dahil sa tinagal nyo magkalayo, naghanap ka ng iba. Eh pano kung Nanay namin naghanap din? Anong mararamdaman kaya nya! Sakit sa tenga nung dahilan nya! Pero ewan ko kahit anong galit gusto kong ilabas nun, hindi ko malabas. Kasi naaawa din kasi ko sa kanya. Ito na lang chance nya na mapadama samin na Tatay namin sya, kaya why not give him another chance. And after all, I am not here if not because of him. Malamang mahirap din yung pinagdaanan nya sa buhay.
Pero mahirap magbigay ng second chance sa taong walang effort na gumawa para mapatunayan na deserve nya yun. I don't know how to label the status of my family right now. Definitely, we're complete physically pero mahirap kasi alam mong may problema. Hindi mo alam pano maayos kasi yung taong dapat mag-ayos nun walang ginagawa. Kaya I think we're complicated! ahahaha. I don't know where my family's story will go. I'll just let God continue to write His story for us. I still believe in happy endings.. haha.. :) I have forgiven my Dad. I'll just pray na sana he'll find the right path. Alam ko gulong-gulo pa sya ngayon pero sana in time makapili na din sya. I still believe everything will be alright if not right now, eventually. We all make mistakes. From those mistakes, we learned.
I super love this movie. This was indeed the best family oriented Filipino movie I've ever seen so far. Good job Star Cinema! You've met your goal! Nakarelate ako ng bonggang-bongga. Nakita ko sarili ko hindi lang sa isa pero sa halos lahat ng characters sa movie.If you're looking for a movie to lift your spirit and give you inspiration, "Sa'yo Lamang" will not disapoint you!
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