Growing Up!

Just want to share with you an article about what they so called "Quarter Life crisis".. Here it goes,

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.


---- I think I'm experiencing some sort of this crisis now.. haha.. Well, since I was a child I always say "I can't wait to get older" because my idea that time is that when I get older, I can do whatever I want.. do that, do this, be like that, be like this.. But right now, 3 more months to go, I'll be turning twenty four.. (oh how time really flies so fast!) And I'm still contemplating what I really want in my life.. I have a job but I'm still searchng for new ventures where I can really use my potentials and can really say "I'm happy with what I'm doing". But unfortunately, I'm still fighting for that crisis.. I want something new, but I'm too afraid too try.. I hope I can be strong and fearless like others that when they really want something, they go and try it and never care what will be the outcome, what matters is that they've tried. I want to be like that!!!

Searching for someone to be your future partner is also difficult. Like me, I don't want to rush things.. I know God has prepared someone for me.. If I haven't met him now, I know in the future when time finally permits us to meet, we will be perfect for each other.. haha.. :) For now, I'm loving myself so much!

People's expectations also has a big impact when you grow up.. In my case, back three years ago, when I'm still a fresh graduate, I'm the happiest creature that moment because I've graduated in college and I passed the board exam.. My parents, relatives and friends are sooo proud of what I've achieved.. It's true when they say, real life starts after college life.. very true nga! It's time to face the real world!!! Before, I just think that when I finished my studies I can get the job that I want so I can save money, buy my dream house and tour the places that I want to go to.. But life is not that easy pala.. Finding a job that really suits for you is very tough.. So far, so good.. I'm still blessed I have a job.. But it's a different thing if you enjoy what you're doing.. Anyhow, at the end of the day I can say I'm still fortunate that I have what I have now..

When we grow up, it's normal that some people will come and go.. those friends that we thought we were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people we have ever met, and the people we have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.. so true! Change is inevitable.. People change and we also do.. That's part of life! The people you thought you couldn't live without can actually can live their lives without you.. so why bother? Just spend your time to people who loves you and needs you.. In friendship, what matters most is who will make it to the end with you.. :)

I know it will still be a long journey for me.. I'm still young and I know there's a lot wonderful things God had in store for me.. I'm so blessed with what I have now and what I have become now.. I'm excited what's gonna happen for me 5 or 10 years from now..

Growing old and growing up is two different thing. We get older every year. Growing up is your choice..