Bee Happy! :)

Despite of everything that I'm going through in my life, I can still say that I'm happy! I have my own problems but I still try to have a positive outlook in life.. Everyday is a blessing from God.. There's no reason to be sad coz' in every storm there's a rainbow after.. :)

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

Growing Up!

Just want to share with you an article about what they so called "Quarter Life crisis".. Here it goes,

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.


---- I think I'm experiencing some sort of this crisis now.. haha.. Well, since I was a child I always say "I can't wait to get older" because my idea that time is that when I get older, I can do whatever I want.. do that, do this, be like that, be like this.. But right now, 3 more months to go, I'll be turning twenty four.. (oh how time really flies so fast!) And I'm still contemplating what I really want in my life.. I have a job but I'm still searchng for new ventures where I can really use my potentials and can really say "I'm happy with what I'm doing". But unfortunately, I'm still fighting for that crisis.. I want something new, but I'm too afraid too try.. I hope I can be strong and fearless like others that when they really want something, they go and try it and never care what will be the outcome, what matters is that they've tried. I want to be like that!!!

Searching for someone to be your future partner is also difficult. Like me, I don't want to rush things.. I know God has prepared someone for me.. If I haven't met him now, I know in the future when time finally permits us to meet, we will be perfect for each other.. haha.. :) For now, I'm loving myself so much!

People's expectations also has a big impact when you grow up.. In my case, back three years ago, when I'm still a fresh graduate, I'm the happiest creature that moment because I've graduated in college and I passed the board exam.. My parents, relatives and friends are sooo proud of what I've achieved.. It's true when they say, real life starts after college life.. very true nga! It's time to face the real world!!! Before, I just think that when I finished my studies I can get the job that I want so I can save money, buy my dream house and tour the places that I want to go to.. But life is not that easy pala.. Finding a job that really suits for you is very tough.. So far, so good.. I'm still blessed I have a job.. But it's a different thing if you enjoy what you're doing.. Anyhow, at the end of the day I can say I'm still fortunate that I have what I have now..

When we grow up, it's normal that some people will come and go.. those friends that we thought we were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people we have ever met, and the people we have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.. so true! Change is inevitable.. People change and we also do.. That's part of life! The people you thought you couldn't live without can actually can live their lives without you.. so why bother? Just spend your time to people who loves you and needs you.. In friendship, what matters most is who will make it to the end with you.. :)

I know it will still be a long journey for me.. I'm still young and I know there's a lot wonderful things God had in store for me.. I'm so blessed with what I have now and what I have become now.. I'm excited what's gonna happen for me 5 or 10 years from now..

Growing old and growing up is two different thing. We get older every year. Growing up is your choice..

don't look down on the Philippines because of one man...

We will rise up above this national tragedy.

While it was tragic and a lot of things have to be learned and internalized, let's also realize that every country screws up big time at one time or another. China had melamin deaths, Tienanmen, etc.. The US has had its massacres too that police could not prevent. So have Israel, France, Mexico—everyone. We are not an exception.

Let's not beat ourselves up so much that we do lose hope. The thing to do is to make sure it does not happen again. We have too many things going for us as a people. We will learn and we will move on to do better things that will give us a collective sense of pride.

-- jimparedes.tumblr.com

Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisi, pero para saan pa ang magsisihan kung may mga nagbuhis na ng buhay.. Hindi na ulit natin kayang ibalik ang mga buhay nila.. Nakakaawa si Mendoza, dahil sa kanyang pangsariling hangarin ay may mga taong hangad lang ay mamasyal at magenjoy sa bansa natin ay walang kalaban-laban na nadamay at nagbuhis ng buhay.. Magkahalong depression at galit ang umapaw kay Mendoza.. Kalunos-lunos ang mga pangyayaring naganap sa bansa na nasaksihan ng buong mundo.. Let's just pray that peace may reign in our country.. Believe that good things will come.. Madami na pinagdaanan ang bansa natin, alam kong makakabangon pa din tayo..

Can I proudly say I'm a Filipino despite of what had happened?

Definitely,

I AM A FILIPINO..

And when all fails, I am not and will never be ashamed of what I am.. If the world criticized us because of what one man did, though it was very devastating, let's just face it and move on.. At the end of the day, their words won't make God loves us less..

For those who have died, may your souls rest in peace.. For Mendoza, the hostage taker, I know you have met with our Creator. I know, He's unhappy of what had happened.. Si God na ang bahala sa'yo..

Sana walang mangyaring ganito ulit.. :(

the man i will someday love

RELATIONSHIPS ARE always a difficult terrain to navigate. As a woman, you spend hours pondering—alone or with your girl friends—the intricacies of the human heart. You always hope and pray that the next generation will get it better than you did. Below is a letter I found in my daughter's website (I have her permission to share this). She wrote it to "the man I will someday love." I was expecting to read a gushing, romantic, idealistic tome. I was humbled instead by her sentiments. It's filled with sensible expectations. I pray that this will make every girl believe that hope does spring eternal, and even if your heart has been broken a few times, you can always put the pieces back together, and make it right the next time around. Take your time. Don't rush and don't just "settle." If it's part of His plan, God's best awaits you out there.

Letter

Dear You,

I will admit that sometimes I really do wonder if you exist. There is a part of every little girl's heart that envisions her prince charming. At age three, it is usually of a man who can save her from the wrath of an evil stepmother, wake her from eternal slumber or give her that true love's kiss. In elementary school, he becomes the boy with the least cooties, the one who's willing to cross the playground to share his Oreos even if it makes him a target for the week of all the other boys. Come high school, it's that boy you stand with at prom, who your father stared down at the door, who provided you with an experience complete with photos you will cringe at a decade later, a corsage that yellows in the refrigerator, and a faded memory of a night that seemed almost too magical to be real. Nineteen years into this life, however, and still unwilling to give my heart away, I am still that same little girl who hopes for her prince charming. And although I wonder why it has taken you this long to sweep me off my feet and whisk me off to your palace on horseback, I know that it is probably because meeting you will be better than any fairytale I could've read as a kid. A couple of heartbreaks and a few years wiser though, I will admit that there are times when I question your existence. Because I have yet to meet the guy who makes me hear songs like "All My Life" or "A Whole New World" in my head when I see him does not mean I don't hope that it'll ever happen. I may already know you or may still meet you someday—something I leave completely up to God because I'm pretty sure our story will be epic. However, I can't promise you that I'd make the world's most perfect princess. In fact I'll probably keep you on your toes and amuse you with my eccentricities—there are a lot of them. I'll probably steal a bunch of your T-shirts and turn them into shirt dresses, or drive you slightly mad with my obsessive compulsivity and my need to fix your collar constantly. I can promise to be your best friend however—that person you can rant to after a rough day, the hand you can hold when you get sad, or the person you can text when situations get awkward. I'll probably mess up your hair sometimes and hug you for too long, but that'll only be because I absolutely adore you. I'll bury my head in your shoulder during scary movies and make you feel like superman when you kill those flying cockroaches that really shouldn't exist. I'll cook your favorite food on your birthday and try my best to make friends with your mom. I'll respect your nights-out with the boys and make you seem like the perfect guy to my barkada. I'll watch basketball or soccer games with you, and not complain when you cheer too loudly at the TV set. I'll know the difference between giving you space and being constantly there for you—even if it means sitting and playing video games with you or taking hot chocolate runs when it rains. I'll listen to your music and we'll go on epic adventures together—seeing the world, taking awesome pictures, eating awesome food, and never running out of things to tell each other along the way. I won't be waiting for you to sweep me off my feet and take me on a magic carpet ride, because I know I won't need anything like that to fall for you—I will love you for you. You will be that someone to make goofy faces with in pictures, to lace fingers with when I'm lonely, and to take long walks under the stars with on the beach. You'll be the guy who takes me the way I am—and will laugh as I burst into Disney song or pick out pink wallpaper. You'll be that someone I envision a future with—us filling out visa forms as we travel the universe, picking out our first dog together and arguing about what to name it, or being snap-happy stage parents in our preschooler's annual mini-plays. And I keep hoping that maybe someday when we find each other, you will become that someone whose smile I wake up to in the morning and the last one I speak to every night. So to the man I know does exist, and who will help me maybe make sense of the world someday, this man I can't wait to love. Please know that I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. But for now, I wait. Fingers crossed and palms held together, I hope that you're out there somewhere, waiting for me, too.

With the hope I will be yours for always,

Me

true..

“Sooner or later, you start taking yourself seriously. You know when you need a break. You know when you need a rest. You know what to get worked up about and what to get rid of. And you know when it’s time to take care of yourself, for yourself. To do something that makes you stronger, faster, more complete. Because you know it’s never too late to have a life. And never too late to change one.”

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