When loneliness strikes me...

There are days that I try to laugh with people but you know that deep inside me, I'm shattered into pieces. To be honest, I'm really happy naman with my life. No regrets or whatsoever. I'm blessed that I have what I have right now. But there are times especially that when you're surrounded with people who are so happy because they have their someone special beside them. You're acting like it's okay but in your mind you're thinking you want to have that someone also beside you.

wapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk! ang emo na naman!

Lapit na kasi Valentine's eh.. and for my 24 years of existence never pa ko lumabas and nakipagdate sa araw na 'to! hahahaha... Hopeless romantic talaga ang emote eh noh! hahahaha.. But I know someday (lapit na) magkakaron na din ako kadate pag Valentine's and I will be the luckiest, happiest, most loved girl pag nangyari yun! chos!

Dear Lord, sana ibigay nyo na po sya.. Ayaw ko naman pong tumandang dalaga!!! hahahahaha... :)

Random Thoughts..

The other night, I was having a hard time making myself sleep. So what I did, I turned on my Ipod and listen to random songs. And while listening, many thoughts came flashing. I then realized that I'm going 25 later this year and I can't believe that! (hahaha.. in denial) But honestly, I keep on asking myself 5 years from now, where will I be???? Am I going to be a full time nurse working in a hospital abroad or here in the Philippines? Am I going to pursue my dreams like to become a photographer and a traveller? Will I have a different career far away from my profession right now? Will I be establishing my own family by that time? Thinking about my future makes me feel excited but at the same time afraid. Afraid, because what if all my plans will not be realized soon. I dunno! I have a lot of dreams and plans for my future but I'm too afraid to step out my comfort zone!

I will just take it one day at a time! hahaha.. :)

I am..

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems.I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.

Life without a lovelife.. :)

"Wag kang malungkot kung single ka. Sa bilyong tao sa mundo, sigurado ako na meron isa diyan na hindi rin Masaya kasi wala ka."

What are you thankful for?

It's Thanksgiving!

I have so much to be thankful for- family, friends, work, blessings, faith, God's creations, and this LIFE! As I always say, I may not have everything that I want, at least I have enough.

God is so GOOD! Because even though He doesn't give the things that I ask Him, He still let me be happy with what I have.

I may not have the riches or my prince charming, I'm grateful for God because when I have no one He's always there! He never fails me :)

God's delays is not always God's rejection. A "No" from Him now is maybe a "Yes" in my future. I trust His Timeline. He's preparing something GREAT for me, I believe! :)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Love love love! ♥

Joey Velasco: The Man and the Artist

The first time I saw his painting of "Hapag ng Pag-asa", I was amazed of his talent in painting. I'm a person who loves art. Actually I really love making drawings that's why I really appreciate the kind of works he did. It's not only an art because while looking at his works, you'll see that his drawings speak. Every character in his paintings looks real. It was just recently that I got the news that he passed away. An artist that I idolized a lot that was gone too soon. His paintings speak of life and faith. I was not given a chance to meet him in person but I'm lucky that I got to see his works.

Just want to share the story of Sir Joey Velasco, being a man and being an artist. Joey Velasco is a Filipino visual artist who dared to journey in a field, gingerly trodden by Filipino artists---religious art. His most notable piece is "Hapag ng Pag-asa" (Table of Hope), a recasting of the "Last Supper," where Christ shares a meal with hungry street urchins.


Having done 31 one man exhibits and 2 group shows in the past three years, the other works of Velasco had made the rounds not only of the gallery circuit but also of universities, churches and various groups here and abroad where they never fail to attract a crowd for their compelling themes bridging the celestial and terrestrial. He wrote the book “They Have Jesus” and produced single handedly three indie films. “Sa Kambas ng Lipunan (2006),” “Ang Lumang Paintbrush (2007),” and “Kakaibang Kulay (2008).”

Born in March 18, 1967 to Ciriaco and Adelita Velasco, Joey showed early signs of his passion for entrepreneurship. He took up law at the Ateneo de Manila but had to leave to be in solidarity with his working class parents.

He traces his catharsis and ensuing epiphany to a near-fatal illness that afflicted him four years ago. He underwent a major operation, causing him the loss of his left kidney. He was devastated. He slumped into a depression like being trapped in a dark, lonely, deep well. He totally withdrew from the world – from his work and social life – he avoided any contact with his friends and even his family – locking himself in one room as a total recluse. He prayed that God could throw him a rope for him to get out of darkness, and he was ready to catch it even if it was laced with broken glass. But instead of a rope, the Lord reached out through the paintbrush and he grabbed it. He finally saw light and new life.

His artworks haunt because they serve both as mirror and window. As mirror because the viewers see themselves reflected in the obras; as window because it opens for them a horizon. Velasco’s paintings mirror the everyday life in which a Jesus of a different culture is deeply engaged, but they also open a window such that when people see children with down syndrome singing lullaby to an exhausted Christ on a canvas, the viewers are invited to open that window and plunge themselves into the world of mild to severe mental retardation, unspeakable burden, but also of innocent and unsullied compassion.

The forty two year old artist considers himself just a paint brush being used by the Divine artist. He regards his talent as a gift from above. Happily married to Marie Queeny Puno Sunga for 13 years, he considers this transformative journey in art a legacy to his beloved children Marco, Chiara, Clarisse, and Marti.

www.joeyvelasco.net

"I believe each one of us has a mission on this earth. Some knows it already but still some of us are still in search. But whatever it is that God has planned in our lives, I know it's for the BEST. Sir Joey Velasco is an inspiration. His paintings somehow help us reignite our faith to our Almighty Father. We are sinners but our God is a forgiving Father. We are given life and talents, and I guess we should live and use it to the fullest . Sometimes we take for granted the small things we do to our neighbors but we never know that these small things occupy the big part on their hearts. :)"

thankful @ 24!

Time really flies so fast! woot woot! Goodbye 23! Hello 24!

They say don't count your birthdays, instead count your blessings! And I have so much to thank for! Thank you Lord for another year- another year older but a much wiser ME.. :)

Thank you Lord for this LIFE. It wasn't been so much perfect but nevertheless I wouldn't exchange my life for anything. There were things that I failed, mistakes I made, but then You were always there to remind me that LIFE is beautiful. You have given me a life that has so many lessons on it, some I learned the hard way, but it was all so good!

I want to thank you Lord for giving me a very supportive family. Not perfect, not even close to perfection. But just real to care, support and love me. I'd always be thankful for them. And believe it or not, I'd still want them for a family in my next life. We may have our own shortcomings, misunderstandings and difficulties but I always take it as your way of reminding us how much you trust our family. I believe that You will not give us problems that we can't overcome. Everything happens for a reason. We just have to wait and see why things happen, because in the end You have better plans than we could ever imagine and we should trust You.

Thank you Lord for your blessings called Friends. I am proud to say that You've showered me with true friends. I don't have tons of them. They may be few but they are absolutely real and true! They're my moral supporters too. They are the ones who reminds me how beautiful I am when I'm forgetting to love myself. And to those friends of mine that though we were separated for years but still manage to connect and update each other time to time--thank you for making our friendships continue to grow stronger beyond distance and time.

I may not be rich in material things but having these people in my Life, I could say I'm rich BIG TIME! No amount of money can replace the joy of having true people in my Life! They are the people who mold me to be the person that I am now. I may not have everything, but I have enough. :)

Lord, thank you for always being present in my life, for guiding me and for making me a stronger person everyday. I'm sorry for the times I forget you, but You never fail to forget me. You didn't gave me what I want most of the time, but You've given me what I mostly needed which is indeed so much helpful! Please always remind me that I cannot change everything to my preference but I can change the way I think about it! Remind me that I need to be positive as always.

At 24, my life isn't perfect, no one else's life is though. But despite of the imperfection, I'm still thankful. I will always be thankful. I am terrific and always be terrific. I am tough and will be tougher.

Lord, I know you have great plans for me. Whatever challenges may come my way, I know I can surpass it because I have you. You have given me another year and there's so much to celebrate with it. So lucky that I still exist! :)

Thank you so much for everything! I love you Lord!

You are GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!

Happy New Year to Me!!! :)

* Thank you Thank you sa lahat ng greetings!! Very much appreciated. Salamat sa pag-alala.. sa susunod ulit wag kayo makalimot! :)