Nobody knows it but me!

Nobody knows how many times I've faked a smile, how many times I've cried, how many times I've been hurt. Nobody knows how many times I've had to hold back my tears, how many times I've been let down, how many times I've been walked out on. Nobody knows how many times I've felt like falling apart but I keep it together for those around me, how many times I've been kicked when I was down, how many times I scream. Nobody knows how many times I've forgotten how it feels to be happy, or how long I've been waiting for things to get better. Sometimes I wonder who knows the difference between how I pretend I feel and how I truly feel.

Valentines?? Pagkain ba yun???

Hahahahaha... As in natawa ko sa likepage na yan sa FB.. "Valentines?? Pagkain ba yun???"

Shocks! Feb 14.. Always Alone ang emote ko! I'm looking forward for the day that I will celebrate Valentine's Day with my special someone! Hindi naman siguro naiirita sakin si Lord.. Every time that I pray lagi ko pinagdadasal na sana dumating na sya.. Kamusta 24 na aketch going 25! Sana ibigay na ni Lord.. para age 28 papakasal na ko! Charot! Joke lang! Excited ka teh??? hahahaha..

Basta darating din yan.. Chill lang muna ako.. :) I let God be the author of my Love Story.. cos I know he's preparing the BEST for me! pak! Bongga yun!

Thank you Lord!

Thank you Lord for the good news I received last Saturday! I waited for it for months and I finally got response from the Canadian Embassy that I am now entitled to take the SPEAK test exam and if I passed it (I will!), next is the medical and then Visa!

I hope to see Canada this year!!!

Lord thank you for the good things that is happening in my life now. You're so awesome!

Things I want to accomplish this year 2011

So here I made a list of things I want to have, do and accomplish this year!


- Buy new phone.
- Go out of town- somewhere far from the metro!
- Have a vacation out of the country.
- Learn to cook.
- Find a new job!
- Hopefully, my papers for Canada be released so I can finally go and work there!
- Fall in love! hahaha.. Praying to meet that someone this year! :P
- Save more money!

When loneliness strikes me...

There are days that I try to laugh with people but you know that deep inside me, I'm shattered into pieces. To be honest, I'm really happy naman with my life. No regrets or whatsoever. I'm blessed that I have what I have right now. But there are times especially that when you're surrounded with people who are so happy because they have their someone special beside them. You're acting like it's okay but in your mind you're thinking you want to have that someone also beside you.

wapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk! ang emo na naman!

Lapit na kasi Valentine's eh.. and for my 24 years of existence never pa ko lumabas and nakipagdate sa araw na 'to! hahahaha... Hopeless romantic talaga ang emote eh noh! hahahaha.. But I know someday (lapit na) magkakaron na din ako kadate pag Valentine's and I will be the luckiest, happiest, most loved girl pag nangyari yun! chos!

Dear Lord, sana ibigay nyo na po sya.. Ayaw ko naman pong tumandang dalaga!!! hahahahaha... :)

Random Thoughts..

The other night, I was having a hard time making myself sleep. So what I did, I turned on my Ipod and listen to random songs. And while listening, many thoughts came flashing. I then realized that I'm going 25 later this year and I can't believe that! (hahaha.. in denial) But honestly, I keep on asking myself 5 years from now, where will I be???? Am I going to be a full time nurse working in a hospital abroad or here in the Philippines? Am I going to pursue my dreams like to become a photographer and a traveller? Will I have a different career far away from my profession right now? Will I be establishing my own family by that time? Thinking about my future makes me feel excited but at the same time afraid. Afraid, because what if all my plans will not be realized soon. I dunno! I have a lot of dreams and plans for my future but I'm too afraid to step out my comfort zone!

I will just take it one day at a time! hahaha.. :)

I am..

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic who’s too afraid to fall herself. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems.I love to think rather than talk. I prefer rainy, cloudy days to sunny ones. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.